A message to cheer people up and give new users hope.
I've been on flu since early jan.. I attempted suicide about a week before I started. I had been depressed for years. Literal years, and I'm only 18! I've been going to counselling once a week roughly (i've missed some weeks) and about a month and a half into my course I increased my dose from 20mg to 40mg.
This has helped me change my life. I have never felt happier and more content with myself.
Before I really couldn't see that my life was worth something, and was just obsessed with getting fucked, eg. drinking, drugs whatever I could do to just forget about being sad constantly and about my past/dad. I could hardly spend an hour on my own without bursting into tears about numerous things. Everything came to a head and I took 20 paracetamol just after new year. My relationships suffered all round, and I had to drop out of university. I was lazy, no motivation, all I used to do was stay up all night and cry myself to sleep eventually in the early hours of the morning.
I used to dread being on my own, and made sure I constantly had a boyfriend because of this. Now I actually look forward to having a nice night in alone, washing my hair, doing girly things.
Now, I cannot stress enough, how different I feel. I've never felt this good and in control in my life.
I've now got two jobs- one waitressing, one working for my mum's boyfriend. I've got a new puppy (that has helped so very much would recommend a pet to anyone, great for not feeling so alone!). I've booked a holiday to Ibiza for a month soon with two of my friends.. and I'm going back to university in september.
To everyone who's feeling lost and worried about things, I hope this message and just how much I have changed (there are old posts from me on here somewhere that show just how far I have come) convinces you to keep going and that there is light at the end of the tunnel. You WILL get better.
Good luck to everyone.. and remember the sun will be out more and more so keep smiling all through the next few summer months
p.s. It's also made me lose about a stone in weight! :DReport this