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Hello everybody,
My name is Abigail and I am 24 years old. I have never had an issue with anxiety EVER in my life until about 3-4 months ago. It all started when I abused some adderall. I broke into a terrible panic attack and I thought I was literally dieing. I have never experienced this before so I was very scared. I was brought to the hospital in an ambulance and ever since that day I have anxiety literally every damn day. I've been to the hospital about 11x in the last 2 months bc I think I'm having a heart attack. They said I have GAD, Generalized Anxiety Disorder. All the symptoms I have experienced since this all started are: headaches, dizziness, a tingly feeling through my whole body, chest pain, chest pressure, racing thoughts, cold chills, sweats, shaking hands, burning feeling in chest and back, burning in my whole body, brain zaps, numbness of limbs, memory loss, vision problems, feeling like I can't breathe, feeling of a lump in my throat, bad taste in mouth, and I'm sure more will show up in the future. But what im wondering is why do I ALWAYS think that I have a problem with my heart now. Everytime I get anxious and some symptom shows itself, I always think I'm having a heart attack or my heart's not beating right. It's so weird and it's really annoying. And now my anxiety is waking me up in theiddle of the night. And that scares me even more. I always think now that I stop breathing in my sleep bc I'm constantly jumping awake and I always think that I'm not gonna wake up in the morning. I cant get a good night sleep anymore. I can't enjoy life anymore. It's to the point where I can't even be alone now. It's getting bad. I started paxil about 6 days ago. It takes about a month to start working. I feel Iike my anxiety has got worse since I started the meds. I'm praying that it will help me bc I'm at my breaking point now with this anxiety. I need therapy and I know that. My dr doesn't believe me when I ell her this stuff. She thinks ks I'm just trying to seek drugs. I am an addict. I've been clean since last September except for that adderall incident which I regret soooo much bc it's ruined my life. I just don't understand how one day out of nowhere, I develop very bad anxiety. Does anybody have a clue. I seriously think it has something to do with that adderall incident. Bc I was fine before that. All I know is that anxiety is the worst and most scariest thing I've ever had to deal with. And I have great sympathy for anyone out there suffering from it.
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edgar01195 abigail65605
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I am going through exactly the same thing but mine is slowly slowing down. From my experience of having GAD I think the best thing was exercise and talking to people like your mum and dad brother and sister about your problems it really helps also I was on citalapram 20mg witch really helped the first few weeks wore hell because of side affects but got better and better as time went, it's horrible what your going through but believe me your not the only one just tell your self every time you wake up that your healthy and there is nothing wrong with you good luck it will get better as time gouse on
cia42277 abigail65605
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Your list of symptoms is a list of classic GAD!!!! As to what started it that doesn't matter as much as what are you going to do about it.
When I was as stressed as you I went to urgent care, and was put on anti anxiety meds....what a difference, Abigail. It calmed me enough that I could begin to help myself deal with this. That is how I found this site and it has helped tremendously.You need to see another doctor, many just do not get what GAD really is.
I want to address the why of this again....this could have a foundation many years back, or a genetic predisposition....doesn't matter. I actually found my original event 50 years ago, and, it runs in the family. None of that matters...what does matter is what you do now.
Do go see another doctor, Honey. Hugs
emilylawless abigail65605
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I hear you! I was the same way everything seemed fine and then one day it just happened.... It's horrible I get all the same symptoms as u and more.... Wouldn't wish it on anyone.... I started therapy a few weeks ago and were going through basically my whole life story trying to get to the root of it and also talk about my every day problems. And I love it..: every week I can't wait for my therapy apt it's also a way for me to vent and bitch without hearing complaing from friends and family lol you Definitly need to try it you won't regret it
Jchristinaa abigail65605
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All of the symptoms you have described i have experienced!!! I get dizziness all the time! And im losing weight i have the same exact thing you have and i also worry about strokes too ?? Ive been to the hospital a few times. They said the same thing. And its rare dor teens to get heart attacks and strokes unless they have something wrong. But i still worry
emilylawless Jchristinaa
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What the hell lol everyone complains that they're losing weight with their anxiety and I've gained 20 lbs.... Wth diet and working out!
Jchristinaa emilylawless
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My anxiety causes me to eat less i was 124 and now im 119 ! Im trying to gain weight so i can become 122 or 124 again
J4cobh99 abigail65605
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AlyssiaAmethyst abigail65605
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It must be awful experiencing it for the first time.
I have had several anxiety and panic attack episodes throughout my 19 years of living and I can honestly say it always feels the worst, even though I've had it before. That's just the way anxiety is.
Recently I've been worrying about getting a heart attack too. But after the doctors checked me over, I felt okay. Obviously you're just currently always worrying.
What my Mum told me to do was count my heart beats per minute. If it's under 100 per minute, you're fine. Mine is always under, even if it's 98bpm because of my anxiety. So it kind of calms me and gives me something else to think of whilst counting.
Try breathing exercises to take your mind off of it. And also know that these anxiety symptoms are JUST anxiety and not your heart. If the doctors have said you're fine then you're fine.
After trying weed I had a major panic attack and haven't been right since. Drugs unfortunately do that to you because it's an enhancer.
Definitely see a councillor or therapist for all of this. See one as soon as possible to settle your mind.
I'm glad you recovered but see this as a positive - it's possibly scared you out of ever doing drugs again. They are very bad for you and it's completely normal to have the reaction you've had. Your body is protecting you, it doesn't need this stuff. You're anxious because your body is trying to protect you.
I wish you the best but please seek professional help so you can learn to deal with anxiety.
cia42277 AlyssiaAmethyst
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