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tom23264
tom23264

Hi, my mind is almost always in a complete state of blankness. This has effected me in everything. I don't really feel anything. Music, TV,going out, interacting and so don't bring any emotion out of me. Its like im in a void outside of my everyone else always in the now. My memory is sh*t. I feel like a waste of life because my mind is stuck in this state. Because other than smoking cigarettes I have nothing. My room and house is a mess but it doesn't bother me. And i barely leave my house because I feel like I don't belong in society, so I avoid the world. So I stay in my house with this complete empty, no motivation state.

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  • ursulauc62
    ursulauc62 tom23264

    Posted

    Sorry you are feeling like this Tom. Has anything happened in youre life which might have led you to feel this way? How long have you felt like it? 

    Its hard to suggest anything without knowing a bit more.

  • ursulauc62
    ursulauc62 tom23264

    Posted

    Hi Tom, I know feeling like this is horrible.  

    Was there anythung that happened to you which changed the way you feel about life? How long have you felt like this.

    These are the type of things a doctor - if they are decent - will ask. They may prescribe anti-depressants, but sometimes this is just a quick cheap fix way to approach things. They worked for me at times - they do now, but in years past they havent.

    Its hard to know what to suggest without knowing a bit more.

     

    • tom23264
      tom23264 ursulauc62

      Posted

      Most of my life I have felt like this, because in elementary when I was happy. I couldnt make friends because i never had anything to say, and pretty much out of every loop of socializing. I had a couple people I hungout with because we lived on the same road, and my brothers were a big reason they came. I got close to my grandma before she passed. Somehow managed to have a gf for around 2 years. But I was also going through addiction with k2, so on top of that. She realized there were people that actually live,socialize,have fun and left me for someone she works with. When I was finally able to start talking with my dad, a week later he od on heroin. My ex was with me when I had to deal with my dad, and a lot of other issues. So when she left I died inside.
    • ursulauc62
      ursulauc62 tom23264

      Posted

      You have been through a really difficult time.  I have had problems with alcohol and am still addicted to diazepam.  For years this made me very insular, and I hardly ever went out or socialized. This is getting better. I still sometimes panic about social gatherings.  I used to just automatically have a valium and often a drink with it before any socialising, I was so scared and awkward, but just one drink, so people wouldnt know I was affected. I wanted to appear normal, but feel relaxed.

      I am trying to come of diazepam by reducing it steadily - not easy at all. With your experinces and losing your'e dad in such an awful way, I can understand you would feel pretty awful.

      You do need some help. Tell your'e doctor and try to get referred for some counselling, if you havent already.  Hope you feel you can talk to your'e doctor about this. They aren't always the most useful people - they vary alot!

      Can you talk to anyone else about it?  

      Keep posting on here for support whenever you want.

       

  • borderriever
    borderriever tom23264

    Posted

    Hello Tom

    In the first instance have words with your GP and explain your concerns, 

    Make a list of what is happening and work from that list

    Are you having any worries or concerns, that would cause these feelings if so putt them on your list

    Remember we are always around

    BOB

  • g.90572
    g.90572 tom23264

    Posted

    You have had some successes, you had a relationship with your grandmother and a girlfriend. How did this come about . what about your brothers. Do they have interests and hobbies, try to join in
  • play2day
    play2day tom23264

    Posted

    You situation sounds very much like my son's. He has some trouble with relationships. But the main problem is the adverse effects of an antipsychotic medication that he was given 8 months ago.

    Are you on any medication?

    • tom23264
      tom23264 play2day

      Posted

      Im very sorry to hear that about your son, if its alright to ask is the effort permanent?

      No, I haven't ever been on meds?

    • tom23264
      tom23264

      Posted

      Ignore the last ?

    • play2day
      play2day tom23264

      Posted

      Not sure yet if the effects are permanent. He seems to be improving a little bit. He actually smiled at me today. But he still doesn't seem to really care about anything or anyone. If I left him alone he would probably not make it.

      If you haven't been on any meds, then I would suggest that you are suffering from depression. You've really been through a lot. You might consider seeing a clinical psychologist. They can help you with a plan to get past all this.

      But don't go to a psychiatrist, they'll put you on drugs, which is a downward spiral.

      You can get past this. It won't be quick or easy. But it's doable.

      Best wishes to you.

    • play2day
      play2day

      Posted

      Just remember that even if your people skills aren't the greatest, you can get better. I didn't have a lot of friends when I was young. I didn't have great people skills.

      Then I think people who don't do well socially start to withdraw more and more, since rejection is painful. The thing that changed for me was starting High School and bumping into a really kind and friendly person in the orchestra.

      I couldn't believe he wanted to talk to me. But I started to care more about how I looked and how I responded to him. Then it just became more of a habit. Plus I had a common interest and something to look forward to. Slowly I started making more friends.

      If you have any activity that you might find interesting, that might be the start of your way out of that rut.

  • borderriever
    borderriever tom23264

    Posted

    Tom did you have any treatment to get over your self medication of K.

    It must have been really hard your Father OD on Heroine, it would bring about sad memories of your old situation, Talk to your GP He will try and understand your need, You seem to need someone or a group to give you support.

    Of course you have here to give you some support and understand your negative feelings

    BOB

  • mary47341
    mary47341 tom23264

    Posted

    Hi Tom,this is so sad ,and also upsetting to know that you are on your own ,do you have any close friend that might support you, Please call a doctor for help ,I know how this feels but my sister supported me ,still waiting for the medication tried a few nothing worked yet but one will .someone said to me a while back that life is a challange ,true,easly said hard to do ,take care and reach out ,we all need help

     

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