On the brink of suicide
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Currently sitting on a bench in the hills next to a river, my depression and metal health have deteriorated over the last few months, from sticking screw drivers into my leg, cutting my arm with a saw, bursting my hand open with scissors.
I've cried for help and no one helps, my parter says stop talking about yourself, you only care about yourself, your selfish, everything is about you.
I have turned to drink. Last night I took well.over the prescribed amount, my heart was racing I was having hallucinations, my body kept twitching, right now.I've had 4 30mg and more to.go, with Jack Daniels and cider.
I see no reason to stay here.
I am ready to end it all, I'm half way there.
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elizabeth20203 lewis35694
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Elizabeth.
Digsby lewis35694
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Digsby
caroleUJ62 lewis35694
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patricia44773 lewis35694
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Don't be too hard on your partner....I have had all that said to me too, it's so hard to understand if you have never been ill with depression. They say things because they don't know what to do and they are worried....especially if you are harming yourself. Try to imagine being in their shoes.
You must be getting some sort of professional help if you are in such a bad place...perhaps it's time to ask for more help.
Anyway, it you decide to go the other half way.....I hope you find happiness and contentment, but I rather think you will find blackness worse than the blackness you are now experiencing. What a waste of the gift of life we have been given.
Bless you, I hate the suffering you are going through, my heart aches for you.
I wish I could hug you,
Pat.
caroleUJ62 lewis35694
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When the ambulance arrived for me once - quite recently I did tell them I wanted to die, and they said because of that we have to keep you in hospital till mental health people have seen you. I was then taken to a psychiatric unit. I didnt stay there long, because I convinced them I wasnt suicidal any more. But they will keep you there as long as you need to get get better, and they actually really do care. I mean that from my own experience. I was depressed, but I felt safe there.
Its the step you need to take to start getting better.
Please let us know you are alright. If you dont reply I hope its because you are in hospital now.
caroleUJ62 lewis35694
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Can you send a message so we know you are OK.
I'm really worried about you.
Carole