Can't stop crying

Don't apologise. I know how you feel with the crying, it's all I ever seem to do. But your life is worth so much hun. I beat depression and I can feel it crawling it's way back, it takes a lot to fight it but you can, and you will. Find something in each day to be thankful for and let that bring positivity into your life.

You CAN beat it honey.

Dear Fee..I feel for you, i cried for entire week once when I was 20. i was  miserable about myslef and life. I somehow went through it by myself, alone, without anyone to share by state with. i did not know what i was going through...only years later i found it was my first depression attack. You must have been going through a lot of difficulties...be gentle to yourself, ask for help. what you are going through is a sign, follow it and find out the reason with a good therapist. I had three critical depression attacks, all caused by events from my past, I am on a good way now, and looking forward to happier future. DO not believe your negative thoughts and inform yourself about depression, get help, and take care of yourself!

Hi Fee please carry on posting as long as it is helping you.   That's what we are here for after all.   Don't apologise for being in a bad place right now,  sometimes we need,  at other times we can give.  It's just your turn to need that's all.  We are all here for you my love.

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You are right it can't be any worse but only because it can't be anything coz ending your life is permanent.   Youwould also be stopping any chance of improving your life or enjoying if not happiness then peace and maybe contentment.   You will be missing out on life which is very precious and a gift even though sometimes it feels more like a curse.

I don't have any answers I'm afraid but just want you to know you are not alone.  Take care sweetheart.  bev xx 

 

Dear fee from PJ here in hospital my life crashed 3,yrd ago the anxiety the depression and finally the hopelessness of my current situation after a nasty and vindictive court repossession trial has finally had me evicted from my home last weds

My loving best mate and carer just walked away when the ballots arrived I collapsed and played on the grass crying on my own for 3hrd

I am out of hospital tomorrow as I am crpnocally and dangerously I'll

I too took more than 80pills last week the pressure is unbeatable without a home not knowing where all my belongings are whole on hospital

The pain of loosing the one greind o could depend on

I'm saying all this to explain like others on here will yell u we can't just. Opt yo tale our lives

We need to fight the fight and do the journey and this forum is by fat the best starting point to finding that freedom we all want and to have peace n calm restored to our broken lived

With hugs

From the Royal Free Hospital I send I love and peace as many do for me right now

Pk

Fee every think be ok just keep taking your tablets

Never feel the need to apologise Fee.  Please, please post as often as you feel you need to, that is what the forum is for.

I think a lot of us think like you, or have thought like you, death is always there as an option, but it is so final.  There is no coming back from that choice.  But noone can take that choice away from you....just keep it as a last resort.

Yes, every problem would wash away, so would every hope of a happier life, so would any chance of doing some good in the world, feeling the pleasure of helping someone else or doing something amazing to make your mark on this horrible world. 

The choice is yours love, but it is such an important choice that you should not make it until you are totally sure it is the right thing to do.

Bless you, I bet you are a really lovely person who has so much to give, who could give so much beauty to this ugly world.  Don't waste it.....we need lovely, caring people like you to make the world a better place.

Keep posting, I will look out for you.

Pat.

Fee, please dont end it all.  I know you are strong because we talked about the rape thing, and you came through that.  You also said you had some job interviews to go to. You should go - its something to aim for, to plan for, to get dressed up smartly for and show that you matter.   I know job interviews can be dispiriting, but they can be a positive experience if you can take control of the situation.   If you read a bit about something called nuero-linguistic programming, its a very simple but powerful technique to get people to come round more to your'e way of thinking and to control social situations.

Try looking it up, and using it when you go for an interview.  I think its amazing how we can influence other people if we know the right techniques.  We cant all be Derren Brown, but we can certainly influence our own future positively.

Please look after yourself,

Carole.