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Ive already made up in my mind that i am going to kill myself and I know how and what date. See i suffer from pancreatitis and Im always in severe pain. CPS came in and removed my kids from my ex because I would go into the hospital and would be unable to work and with him being the only oneworking sometimes the lights got cut off so that the rent could be paid. Im just tired of everything and everybody. Im waiting for the day my 10 and 8 year old goes to school becuse I refuse to do it while they're here. Pray for me please!!!!!!!
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Bird82 omunique1
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mami5 omunique1
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matt63753 omunique1
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Please speak to someone now even if it's us on here.....we can all listen if you need us too but please please don't do anything drastic.....x
johneurope omunique1
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patricia44773 omunique1
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I will pray for you....but not for your suicide....I will pray that you will not carry out your plan.
Your life sounds to be truly terrible at the moment, I cannot start to imagine how I would feel in your situation, I am so sorry and sad for you. But things change. You must think of your children first, you brought them into the world, you owe them more than your suicide.
Keep posting, let us know how you are, we will be watching out for you.
My heart aches for you.
Pat. xx
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Tricia55 omunique1
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Ask them about acupuncture as I started it a few months ago with a doctor at my clinic and it does work for pain....My only problem was that I had to have a beak from it due to the doctors other commitments and my other commitments, but I really felt a difference and have now started back. Just waiting for it to kick in. But please put the whole idea of suicide out of your mind. Your babies would be distraught and could never understand why mummy didn't love them enough to stick around, they would blame themselves thinking if only they had been good it might have made a difference. They would carry this around with them for the rest of their lives and then perhaps would lead to further mental complications later in life, you don't want that for your babies, you want to live and see them grow up into beautiful adults. Take care. Tricia x
stevo1975 omunique1
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Before you do this I just want to ask how will you do it? because years ago I and a friend would recreationally use meds to get high and one time I went too far and thought screw it I'm done with living and I overdosed deliberatly in the bathroom only to awake covered in water and my father screaming at me crying (my father was a war vet so hard man) and I remember looking into his eyes and thinking wow he is really scared and emotional I had never seen that in him. I learnt that it was a very dark place and times were rock bottom yet I became aware that the people who I didnt really think cared about me infact did, it was a refreshing experience one you wont see if you do take your own life. I poromise you that your children will have a difficult life without you if you do this and people will remember you for the wrong reasons so think about that please !!! Why not try this tomorrow... Write down things you should die for and things you should live for and see which is higher everyday for a month and qualify which way?
VauxhallGirl omunique1
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Please think of your beautiful children.
They would be devestated to lose you....and you would not be there for them, to protect them, nurture them, and see them grow.
I hear you - that you are in constant paIn. Please go and see your Doctor. Tell him what you have told us. He has to find some way of making your life more liveable.
Please let us know how you are. Keep talking to us.
We are all praying for you...praying that you come through this bad time. xxx
shabs40533 omunique1
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VauxhallGirl shabs40533
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I have had Tinnitus for near on 30 years, and can tell you that the only way to deal with that unwelcome guest, is to push it to the back of your mind (don't dwell on it - don't allow it to take a hold of your mind), and mask it with background sounds as often as you can.
Radio on quietly (so as not to aggrovate it), or the telly. I have heard that some people have a fan on in the background while they sleep, so they don't focus on it, and can get some sleep.
You may need help with pushing it to the back of your mind....go and see your Doc, and he can refer you to an Audiologist who can teach you how to "ignore" it.
Not focusing on Tinnitus is the only way to live with it.
Also, wear earplugs to do things like hoovering, lawn mowing, and even an electric shaver, so these sounds don't aggrovate the Tinnitus.
All the best, and keep chatting to us. xx
shabs40533 VauxhallGirl
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Take care.
VauxhallGirl shabs40533
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I have lived with it by not letting it take a hold of me. That is the only way to live with it. Once you are taught how to push it to the back of your mind, it becomes a whole lot easier. x
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