Recently diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder
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Hi everyone..
I am feeling very discouraged. Last night was the first time I have ever seen a psychiatrist and after walking through everything that has been going on since November 2015 I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder.. I just started taking wellbutrin.. which I am terrified to take any medications at all.
I feel very scared and this all started after I was put on sleeping medications Temazepam then Ambien in October 2015. I was on Temazepam for almost two weeks and started to get really anxious and depressed so I stopped taking it. The nurse I was seeing then put me on Ambien and I was on it for about 5 weeks. One day I woke up and I felt absolutely nothing.. AT ALL.
I dont feel love I dont feel happiness or sadness. NOTHING. Everything is so flat and empty.I went form being so over happy and so overjoyed I just got married in September 2015 to the love of my life who is truly my greatest gift. Seriously I was the happiest I have ever been.
I feel nothing I went from being so in love and so happy to feeling none of those feelings.
WHAT THE HELL HAS HAPPENED TO ME??
am I alone feeling this way. I feel so crazy and I am so afraid I will never be my old loving happy self again.
Please anyone who has more of an idea about this.. I need you and your responses. I am seriously struggling.
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orange12933 tan77
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I guess I just feel so abnormal. How can I go from being happy one day to completely nothingness the next? and how can this feeling of nothing continue?
This isnt me. I am happy, grateful and I truly love everyone. This isnt normal. Is this part of depression?
Digsby tan77
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The human body is a complex thing - infinitely wonderful and also very fragile and delicately balanced. Depression is often and imbalance somewhere in the body (usually the brain) which affects our mood, emotions, thoughts and whole personality. We often don't even recognise ourselves and our friends and family notice big changes that we cannot hide from those who know us well. Please don't give up on rediscovering your mojo - it is not gone forever; it's just buried by this condition which is not your fault. Loved ones will sympathise and cut your some slack if you explain how you are feeling. They wouldn't blame you if you said you had flu and weren't feeling yourself. You need a bit of time and space to recover and I believe that with the right combination of medication and therapy you will rediscover your old happy self again because that's who you are deep down. This illness can only mask that - it can't overwrite your personality. It will be a frustrating journey but the more you try to rush it and force a change, the harder and more elusive the way out of this maze could be. Accept it for what it is at the moment - an illness. It doesn't need to define you and you will get better. Stay strong and keep in touch :-)
tan77 Digsby
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I feel like my depression has gone in phases. First phase was being very upset and scared crying all of the time looking for answers to why I don't feel anything. And now I'm in a weird phase of my depression where I just don't care.. I mean I do and I worry I will be like this forever but it's almost like I don't miss my emotions all of the sudden and my body has given up caring. I just don't understand what's happened to me.
I am on Wellbutrin and it's been about 2.5 weeks. We will see how that goes. Have you ever felt the way I do?
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