Hate this feeling. Tired of fighting with my head!
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Hello everyone,
This is so hard to write, but seeing everyone's post and reading them I feel like I'm not alone and feel like I have a connection with others on here.
I'm 30 I am depressed and finally after opening up to my partner of 9years (which was sooo hard) I am now on meds citalopram 40mg, been on this now for 5weeks.
But I feel some days I am ok and have a good day but like yesterday I wanted to end my life and I was not scared to do so i felt empty worthless numb useless and just cried all day!!! I was googling ways to die and even attempted to find the right items to gas myself in the car. I hate this feeling why do I get this?? I argue with myself no think of my kids think of my partner!! But then my head saying " well look at your partner he is sad best way to stop that is kill yourself cause it's you that's making him sad!
Does anyone else have this fight? How can I stop this? My poor partner is so upset and doesn't want to leave my side cause he's so scared to lose me. I try to think positive but ...nothing is positive ! I feel I cause pain and worrie to the family and that's not what they need! I feel I could be at rest if I'm gone no more fighting no more pain for everyone and then I can watch over them all happy. I'm sorry this probably sounds so bad! I'm even scared now to come back on here to check the response. So if I reply late I'm sorry xxxx
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jenn2013 SGM
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Sam24259 SGM
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Stay strong you are not alone.
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richard89308 SGM
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lynne82155 SGM
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Go a see a mental health professional and get the help you need and deserve.
You are not alone this forum is excellent for support or even if you just want to vent.
Stay strong you are not alone