i'm scared of myself
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i am in a lot of pain i'm on so many medications but nothing will make the pain go away. lately i've been so depressed all i want to do is take whatever i can that will make me sleep. i only sleep around 2 hours a day but if it's a new or defferent medication i can take it 2 or3 days before my system gets use to it i cant be alone with my grand babies because i'm so scared of the mood swings i don't want to hurt them or there little feelings i am misrable i'm nothing without my grand babies they are the only reason i havent sliced my wraist all i think about is different ways i can end this misrable life i have had so many bad things happen to me when will i ever get a break the only time i can forget my life for a few hours is to escape ibto tv programs at least the ones that will hold my attention i'm on so many medications that i'm just empty inside everyday i think of a reason not to end this nothing life maybe god will give me a do over im two months i will be homeless i have nowhere where to go with no income i am in so much pain i can't even whole down a job i don't know what i'm going to do im so scared i am a beardom on my children my son just took on a second job to pay for my meds and take care of his family i feel so bad u=i hate myself and i know my children hate me too
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