2 weeks on 20mg fluoxetine! Feeling fed up!

50 mg Zoloft

I feel ten times better than I did last week when I ended up in hospital! But it's like I just feel so drained! I don't feel as sick as I did but still haven't really got any appitite! I don't feel as detached as I did I now there's little improvements but I have no patience and just want to be myself again! Sucks!

Your on 40mg?how long before you felt good?

Hi was about 4 to 6 weeks when I felt the benefit seemed like forever waiting for them to work though X 

Aww thanks for the lovely comment! It's so nice to hear off people who know how your feeling and understand! It's reassuring?? Yer I have always had little bouts where I don't feel myself but it passes but the last 8 weeks I have been feeling awful and it gradually got worse ending up in a breakdown I couldn't cope anymore! Went to hospital last week because I was beside myself I felt like I was on a wall and I was gonna go over horrendous feeling! Yes the doctor said I'm sensitive to eve trying because my nerves and anxiety are so high! It's the worst feeling I have ever been through wouldn't wish it on anyone and just want to be me again! Your comment was lovely though thankyou so much xx

Oh bless you, poor you ...... I know exactly what you're going though.  Some people are sensitive to the meds and am hoping your doctor is keeping an eye on you.  It was the most horrendous illness I've every gone through - and I also wouldn't wish it on anyone.

Pushing on with these meds will really, really help.  I couldn't imagine life without anxiety ..... but it happened eventually on the meds.  Please keep in touch regularly with your doctor though whilst recovering.

People have no idea what anxiety is like - its something you can't explain as the experience is like nothing else.  You can recover on the meds though - it will be a bit tough to start, but keep that thought in your mind 'anxiety free' - it really does happen.

Everything will seem scary at the moment - your nerves have taken quite a bashing.  They'll calm down with the meds and all will ease in time.

Thinking of you.

K xx

I am sticking to the meds because I know they will help me! It's just being patient and kind to yourself at the moment but the feeling is so overwhelming isn't it! It's all stemmed from over the last few years after a lot of things and lost a lot of people close to me both nans my dad left my mam after 25 years and then lost 3 friends in a car accident back last October also going through a break up atm there's just lots of different things and the doc thinks that it's all got to much to deal with I'm only 25! I get health anxiety aswell I always think the worst and think that people close to me will die or something bad will happen to them I'm in high alert all the time! I just want to be better! Xx

Yes the anxiety can be very overwhelming - you just want someone to take it all away.  

Anxiety usually stems from stress - either either physical or emotional (or both).  It can build up over time or happen suddenly (ie shock), it can be the result of illness, work, upbringing, life ..... just anything you find stressful.  Anxiety then results from this and simply means your body has reached its limit.  Everyone has different limits - some people thrive on stress whilst others has less of a toerance.  Having anxiety means your body is on a constant heightened alert, and any provocation will make the adrenaline surge round your body.

Sorry to hear of your losses.  You've gone through a lot, and seems its taken a toll on your emotional well being.  These meds really will help you get your life back on track and help to put things back into perspective.  Have you considered having a talking therapy too?  It may help to talk to a professional about your losses.  Your doctor could recommend something I'm sure.

I was 20 when I was first ill and thought my life had ended when I became ill.  I didn't think anyone else would have the same.  Reading about this illness has helped me too.

When you're suffering with this illness your mind goes into overdrive.  You can get strange thoughts which in turn sends your body into a panic - I did too about people.  This is normal thinking, but your body is overreacting at the moment due to the anxiety.  

Trying to stay calm (not easy) is good as anxiety likes a tense body.  Walk slower, don't rush about, drive slower too.  Exercise is good as it burns up excess anxiety - a daily walk helps.  Also eating well (if you can).  All this helps whilst you wait for the meds to take effect.

You will get better.

K xx

I did have CBT but didn't think it was doing anything but doctor has refered me to this different therapy but it will take a few weeks to start up also gotta start these courses for coping skills! Yer I do go for a little walk every day! Im finding it hard to be around a lot of people crowds and stuff arm but I push myself! The most thing it's done is scare me the way I feel I love my own company and stuff and doing little bit but I haven't left my mothers side in 2 weeks I don't want to be on my own and I have no idea why I get scared but I don't know why! Did you ever get that?xx

Sometimes you need a different talking therapy - and sometimes you might need a couple of goes at it before you feel its helping you.  Glad you have a different therapy referral.

Keep up the walking - its really good being outside amonst nature and getting some exercise.  Being with people can be tricky for some people, but try not push yourself to do it - forcing yourself to be uncomfortable will just make you tense.  Are there people you feel more comfy with than others?  Could you go out with your mother or someone who feel ok with?  You coul even try being with people for maybe 30 mins and then go home or something.  But don't make yourself.  You'll probably find in time that you'll find find it ok to do this.

No I didn't want to be on my own either - I didn't enjoy my own company, and used to feel panicky when I had to be on my own.  Yes, I know exactly that feeling.  When I recovered on the meds it didn't bother me anymore and now love my own company.

It will come ok for you again.

K xx

Being with someone just makes you feel safe.  

Yes being around my mam atm is my security! She hasent left my side and took time off work until I'm feeling abit better yes I will go anywhere with her because she understand me she been through it few years back! I can go to the corner shop no prob but like a supermarket atm is a no go start getting all panicky like I'm gonna faint and everyone gets on my nerves sounds silly I know! Yes the doct told me not to push or do to much just do what I want to do so that's what I'm doing?? Thankyou for your comments again they are so kind and reassuring xx

My son also went through this - had a breakdown 2 years ago and he went through hell.  He couldn't work for 4 months and I also stayed by his side during his darkest moments.  It was very tough for us all, especially my son, but as I'd been through it I knew what he was suffering and helped him through it.  Took him 9 months to recover and is now a happy young man again, has a lovely girlfriend now too - and has recently come off his meds and is still very well.  Don't worry about the timescale it took for him to recover - we're all different and it takes all of us different times.  

His doctor advised him to step outside his comfort zone a little at a time - which he did.  I got him involved in an African drum class - I used to go with him at first and he'd sit not speaking to anyone, but joined in.  Eventually he was able to go on his own, and has now been drumming for 2 years and was recently asked to join their performing group which he has.  When he was ill he also started guitar lessons, and again he's still playing guitar and has gone up to higher groups.  He found it difficult at first mixing with people, but stepping outside his comfort zone a little, he has grown to be more comfortable with this.

For me when I was recovering I started attending a dance class - music and dance is so good for the soul.  At times I didn't want to go, but would always enjoy it when I was there.  I made new friends, got some exercise, joined the dance troupe ........ and 15 years later I'm now a dance teacher, travel and have found a new confidence I never knew I had either.  I would never have imagined myself teaching or being on stage.

Finding something you really enjoy can help - though of course sometimes you don't want to do anything.  

Being with too many people can be irritating.  When you're ill your nerves are really heightened, so sound can feel overwhelming and annoying, lights can be too blinding, and people who all look happy can make you feel upset and annoyed.  I used to feel like I was in a goldfish bowl looking out at people and I so longed to be free and happy like them, and then I'd feel depressed and anxious about it all.  I liked being with people though, I needed company.

Can you visit the supermarket in the evening when its quieter?  Or maybe if you mam needs to go, could you sit in the car maybe and not go in?  Trying not to avoid things completely, but finding another way to go there might be better.  Going to the corner shop is good though.  Small things at a time.

No its not silly - you can't help how you're feeling at the moment - your body is doing what it wants to do.  It will ease for you in time.  It really is a wretched illness to suffer with.

Its really early days for you on Fluoxetine still - just keep persevering with them and patience will pay off.

Thinking of you.

K xx

 

Yes that's how I feel like everyone around me is happy and then I just feel nothing and feel like I will never ever be myself again it's horrendous! I dont know if this has anything to do with tablets is not but I have got like dry itchy red patches over my body on my knock on my arm under my eye and under my eyebrow it just won't go i have never had problems with my skin before so have no idea what it is??? Could it be a side effect or related to stress?xx

I thought exactly like you - I felt I'd never get over it and couldn't see a way out at all.  I was so amazed when I did recover - it was like a miracle.

The itchy red patches could be from the medication - its best to get that checked out with your doctor as he may be prescribe something for it.

K x