Confession time

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Ok, so most of you know me by now, and I've confessed to a lot of things on here, but this one is something I'm really ashamed to mention.

I've gone and got myself 'addicted' to pain medication. Codeine specifically. Initially I took it to help me sleep at night. Sigh. I have myofacial pain syndrome as well as PMR.

No wonder I'm depressed, eh?  Throw in pred and Lyrica (another pain medication that makes you drowsy) and it's no wonder I'm not motivated to do anything - I'm drugged to the eyeballs all day.

I know I need to tell my Dr, I know I need to get off it, but like all "drug addicts" the thought of doing so scares the hell out of me.

I'm currently taking 4 tablets of 15mg codeine/500mg paracetomol three times a day. That equates to 6mg of paracetomol a day! OMG!

I KNOW this will cause liver damage, if it hasn't already, so no need for the lectures, thanks.redface

I'm only mentioning this so that if any one else has found themselves on the slippery slope they know they are not alone.

I also hope that by actually telling someone (everyone) that I confront my problem and actually do something about it.

It's time I fixed this one.

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  • Posted

    Admitting it is your first step! Now move forward and do something about it!

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    Thank you for sharing, This is your first big step to getting better. We are here for you. I hope you discuss this with your Dr. So he can get you on a healing path. One day at a time. 
  • Posted

    Get addicted to meditation, mindfulness, Google you are the placebo. 
    • Posted

      Will do. You are not the first person to adivse meditation. Maybe there's something in it? lol

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      Yes, I'm shocked how much meditation is helping me, I just got to 2 mg Pred. 

      It's teaching me so much, but it must be done daily, so that's why I said "get addicted to meditation", I've never been a very disciplined person, but this PMR is teaching me so much. I drank too much wine before and now it messes with my stomach and taste buds, I struggle to not open a bottle sometimes. If you want to talk more about meditation we can PM each other.  

      Bless you sister. Hugs. 

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      Saw on Facebook advice on how to meditate, from a monk.  Simple simple simple.  Just become aware of your breath.  He said we can all of us meditate anywhere, any time.  Even focusing on the breath for a minute or two is "meditation".  How can this be?  It gives our busy monkey brain something to do, and that frees up the higher processes we want to encourage.  

      Meditate, don't medicate!

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      I took a short class on meditation and one technique I remember and LOVE is...

      using all your senses, sight, smell, feeling, hearing... Put your self at a place that is glorious to you, real or made up in your mind.  For example:

      I'm at a beach, the weather temperature is perfect, I feel a slight breeze off the water bringing me smells that are fresh, invigorating, healing, they represent life from the waters. I take a deep healing breath and feel it calm all my nerves.   No one else is at the beach, or if they are, they are down a ways, I hear them laughing and having a glorious time playing, running, happy as can be. It makes me smile.  I feel the sand under my feet, soft and warm, I move the top layer off and feel the cool moist sand below.  Ahhhh. It tickles my skin. I look out at the water and see all the way to the horizon. The expanse of the sight befor me fills me up with the grandeur of possibilities. The sky is beautiful blue, puffy white clouds that look so light weight and soft. 

      Then she taught us to turn 360 degrees and see, smell, feel all that is around you. Make it as you want. 

      before I knew it 5 minute timer went off. It was so pleasant. wink 

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      I think I did this at a workshop one time.  I usually fall asleep when I try to meditate.  But walking meditation works for me.  Just becoming aware of one's steps, for some reason awareness of everything else is heightened.  Usually of the natural world, especially birdsong.  Like paying attention to the breath, then suddenly the real things around one come into focus and the chatter of monkey brain is stilled.

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      Funny Anhaga. I guess getting all the senses involved helps invigorate us and yes, focusing on that present moment whether in mind or nature stills our mind. Yes, monkey mind.

      oh, and for record, my response post about that sample meditation was for everyone, just adding to conversation, not just telling Anhaga.  I know some people are sensitive/confused to the response threads.  

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    I have seen your posts on this forum...you have contributed often.

    Vety courageous of you to admit this predicament of yours. Others, more knowledgeable than myself will make suggestions. Wish I could be more helpful, but don't be too hard on yourself for looking for relief from the pain.

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    It is so easy to become addicted so please don't be too hard on yourself & I applaud you for being able to admit it.  Cliches & the usual sayings apply & I'm sure you know them already but I genuinely wish you success in not only being able to 'do something about it' but to stay off them.  

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    I think that is a big step to take to freeing. The next step is seeing your doctor as you know. I hope you get the much needed support and we will all be rooting for you and can give support here. There is no shame as it could happen to anyone of us. Pain is so difficult because it affects everything we do from sleepless nights to extremely difficult days and these will likely be the good days. My best wishes for your recovery.
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    I'm surprised that your doctor has not been keeping tabs on how many

    pills he prescribes for you....seems like that would ring an alarm

    bell for him.   And now......you know what you need to do so go and do it.

    May not be the same but if I can quit smoking.....and it was the hardest

    thing I've ever done.....you can get a grip on this problem

    We're with you every step.....keep us posted.

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      If Flip's jurisdiction is like mine, you can get codeine with either aspirin or acetaminophen just by asking the pharmacist for a bottle, no prescription required.  I've had the opposite problem - trying to find a small enough bottle that the darn pills don't expire before they're all used up!

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      Where in the world do you live that you can get codeine by asking

      for it at a pharmacy ?  In the U.S. have to sign for OTC sinus and allergy pills that contain Dextromathorphan, the med that is used in

      processing meth. It's kept behind the counter in the pharmacy

      and have to ask for it....you have to sign for it and show driver's

      license.....hard to imagine you can get codeine just by asking

      for it.....

       

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      Nova Scotia.  It's not a big dose, just combined with the other analgesic.  I did hear a rumour that they were thinking of tightening up the rules, which seems a bit pointless as I guess the big problem here is with the prescription drug, Oxycontin.  When I had a broken leg when they sent me home from the hospital I was written a prescription for 50 tablets of Oxycontin.  When I saw that I said, I'm not having that in my house, and they had to find another physician who wrote up one for 20 tablets of Tylenol 3.  Tylenol 3 is the prescription version with codeine, and much stronger than the OTC I get.  It took me a whole year to use up that bottle, and I'd say about two thirds of them were used for headaches, not for the leg!  Looking at the bottle I have right now, the OTC version, each tablet contains 375 mg acetylsalicylic acid, 15 mg caffeine and 8 mg codeine.  Any medication with a higher concentration would be a prescription med, and I only ever take one tablet, plus a couple of plain aspirin, at any time, never more than one tablet with codeine on a given day, and even this very rarely.  

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      I have no problems with taking pain meds for pain.  We just all need

      to be aware of the pitfalls with this stuff....Just take what is prescribed

      or less than that.   Those of us with PMR that have ongoing pain'

      that will return again and again need to be especially careful.....

      Like I said, I cut them in half and find it helps.   I can't take

      aspirin....I've had a stroke some years back and doc doesn't want

      me to take aspirin.   I'm on some blood pressure meds too.

      Wish I could get off all of it.......

    • Posted

      You know, Faye, I've just remembered, before I was diagnosed with PMR I almost used to welcome the days I needed to take aspirin or tylenol for a headache because that used to make me feel somewhat better all over.  I know we are told that only pred works for PMR pain, but I know I did feel marginally better.  It never occurred to me to take the painkillers just for the PMR aches and pains.  I figured they were arthritis and I would just have to live with them....  The doctor I had at the time just kept prescribing some other heavy duty painkiller and I could never bear to fill that prescription, they were something quite scary.  Not codeine.  Celebrex?

    • Posted

      Yeah...Celebrex is still around I think....mostly for joint and

      arthritis pain.....I think most pain meds are a trial and error for

      most of us.....have to find the one that works for us.

    • Posted

      I thought it a bit counterproductive to take a drug for pain for which one of the major side effects is headache, and others include stomach ulcers; the ailment, which turned out to be PMR as a different GP determined very quickly, seemed preferable!
    • Posted

      In Australia you can buy a thing called Panadine Xtra over the counter - it's 15mg of codiene and 500mg of paracetamol. Recommended dose is 2 tabs, not more tha 8 in a day and not more than 3 days in a row.

      I've been chowing down 4 tablets, three/four times a day for over 6 months.

      They've only just started to keep track of who's buying it by taking your licence details, but it's not done everywhere. Most places don't ask questions, especially when you buy it with a ton of other medications like I do.

      And it's not the codiene that I'm worried about! it's the paracetomol and the damage it is probably doing to my liver.

    • Posted

      I agree, and I am aware of the pitfalls, but when the recommended dose doesn't work any more it's very bloody easy to take 'just one more' until your tolerance is high and you take way more than you should just to get it to work.

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