countdown has begun
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been wanting to die for sometime, have seeked professional help, although to be honest, its not helping, i'm awaiting further evaluation reports from doctor n phyciatrist, an maybe better medication,
i'm carefull how i am planning on suicide to ensure my body is not found, i knws this will be difficult, it may come to i wont care,
i'l hold on till the end of this week, been trying for yrs to look 4ward to something to live for, i guess its time to go........
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justbeingme2 michael98615
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You cannot give up on yourself. I know how terrible it is and can be to suffer from depression and anxiety. I am still trying to find the right meds and therapy. I've wanted to die but I fought because I just can't give up on myself. You are worth it! I'm not good at saying the right things but I don't want you to give up! There are so many wonderful people here that will be there to support you. You are not alone! Don't give in to this illness. There is hope!
michael98615 justbeingme2
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i believe i have lived a fullfilling life, an always knew when it was to come to an end, i would go, the things i have worth holding on for, its all meh....... i dont believe in a good future for myself or britian, if euthanasia was allowed even for perfectly fit able body'd ppl, i would of gone a long time ago, an the life i hav led is just a vast of nothingness,
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hypercat michael98615
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You have nothing to lose by waiting for the evaluations from the doctor and psychiatrist do you? So why not wait? Explore every avenue before you decide on such a drastic step. You owe it to yourself to do everything you can to start if not to enjoy life as ok that's more difficult but to manage to find contentment and some peace. You won't find that in death will you coz there is nothing there is there?
I went through this in my 20/30's and incidentally I found my own strength when I realised no one cared about me nor was I offered treatment. I didn't have any illusions left or any help. But out of this I changed my mindset as I was determined to give myself every chance I could. I think what I am saying is that when you are at rock bottom then the only way is up.
To this end I opened my mind to all possibilities and learned what I had to in order to survive - and that was all I was seeking for a long time. Just to survive - not to expect happiness or love but just the basic survival instinct.
Out of this changes happened which gradually started improving my life and it changed from just the survival instinct to finding contentment and even some happiness.
Life is very hard and nothing comes easy for most people - just don't expect it to. Rely on yourself and your own strength and you do have this you know deep down. I am not religious but I do firmly believe that no one is ever given more in life than they can deal with, you included. Dig deep and find your own strength. Keep in touch. x
karen76745 michael98615
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I do know what you mean about feeling that the professional help you seek seems to do no good, I have a lot of people now working on my case, even a caring doctor, but none of it seems to stop the want not to go on anymore.
I don't always feel my meds are making much of a difference, apart from making me feel so worn out, which doesnot help those dark feelings either.
Please stay here a little longer, I know I am asking a big thing of you, as I am struggling just the same to believe there is a point in continuing; it does seem like no-one really understands the weight of this hopelessness and futility, but please if you would hang on, some of us do care xx
michael98615
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so glad i dont drink no more, ive never self harmed, although i find it more appealing than to drink, i always try suggestiions from doctor and supportt worker, as more avenues to try before i take the permament way out.
again would like to thank everybody this site does really help inbetween appointments, n course i wish u all the best in what it is, you guys do
karen76745 michael98615
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I am so pleased the countdown has stopped Michael, your life is precious, and maybe getting the right move will help also.
Do try out new things if you can face them, perhaps a long neglected hobby or dream pastime that would help to lift your spirits; it sometimes helps to find a way to channel whats going on inside by using a skill or learning a nre craft etc.
Obviously this is only a suggestion, for now I am just glad to know you feel a bit more hopeful.
Thinking of you xx
hypercat michael98615
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I am so pleased that the Countdown has stopped for you, try and keep it this way as long as possible. Lots of hugs Bev x