Depressed,Alone and A Phobia of Doctors
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Hi, I'm 43. I feel so depressed and very much alone. Lately I have been having very frightening anxiety attacks - my chest hurts and my throat feels as if it is closing up. I can't sleep and I feel so desperately sad all the time. I had a very traumatic childhood and I am having flashbacks, which are hard to deal with. To make matters worse I have an extreme fear of doctors, I just can't go near them. It's such a big problem.. I'd very much like to know if there are any other people out there who have the same phobia of doctors.. Lately I feel that I don't want to go anymore. I feel so alone
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JustinaC
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May I suggest to you write everything doen and your feelings down and take a trusted person to you appointment to the Dr. Take them into the consultation with you and they can prompt you but if you have it all written down you can litterally read it to the Dr. Any good GP would understand and help you. The longerer you leave iot the worse it will get.
Good luck!
Rachel08
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JustinaC
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It took me a long time to go go the drs and admit I was depressed. I have had depression on and off all my adult life from mild to now clinical. My partner contacted my mother last time and she came here to Sheffield where I live with my brother to see how bad I was. They went to the Dr without me and insisted that I was sssen and referred to mental health services. My brother said if she didn't he would go to the GMC! I left that surgery and transferred to another more sympathtic one. The GP there was so good and referred me to mental health services and put me on citilopram straight away.
This last time I went to the GP myself and again was given medication. I eventually was sectioned as I stopped taking it but I have gone back onto mertazapine.
Try and go to the Dr, the sooner the be the better. If you feel y you cant do that try the Samartans ( I think you can email them) or you could try Mind.Org.UK. It has a very good website.
It sounds as if maybe you could have some kind of talking thearpy and discuss your issues about your childhood.
Rachel08
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coggy
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I do feel for you. I have a similar story but my dentist actually contacted my doctor when I wrote her a letter saying I coudl face coming for the fillings she told me I needed . Thankfully she noticed my depression and spoke to doctor who contacted me at home and came and saw me. Start f medication, alot of therapy, alot of stuff form past come out, and I must admit, things arent great now but can only improve. I contacted samarians on a number fo occasioned end of last year when I didnt want to carry on - coudltn talk to them but had wonderful email support from them - didnt tell me what to do but I felt really like they wanted to be there for me. U say you counldnt see a doctor, what abotu a practice nurse? would you talk to them? I am a practice nurse and I have had pateints who feel they cant go to doctors, they come and talkt o me and then we go togetehr and I help them talkt o doctor and get help. Just a thought - u need some help and some one needs to be there for /with you I'm so sorry you feel like you do - its horrible but we are all here for you and will support you with seeing someone professionally so you get some help. Take care , keep talking to us xxxxxxx
Rachel08
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coggy
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I understand what u mean and I must admit I too have been concerned re the possibility of secitioning and "being locked away" but it so rarely happens unless u r a risk to urself or someone else - but yes, I understand your concern. Do you have anyone close to you who u feel comfortabel to talk to? I didnt although I have got a lttle better in last 8 months but I still avoid alot of conversations. U sound like you are havign panic attacks to a certain degree leaving u with a tight heavy chets. How long have u been like this? Do you get out to work ? I too am 43 and I can feel for you so much but u need to somehow let some one in so they can help you _ I have a problem with men after some horrible abuse in past so I found a woman doctor - I now see a male psychiatrist so that shows just how far I have come with medication and yes I was petrified , I felt so sick, so unabkle to talk before I went in, but now I feel he is the closest person on my side and is so supportive - he knew abotu my past in a letetr I write to him before I went - coudl you write to your doctor? Woudl u let them come and see you at your home where u r on home territory and U r in control? Its such a horrible situation but there r many options of help - some medication might initally make u feel able to do more but they have to know to start this up. Please please, please trust a professional to help you xxxx
coggy
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applogoies for my bad typing Rachel !!!! My english isnt usually this bad lol!!!
JustinaC
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Samaritans sounds a good idea or practice nurse. My GP referred me for CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) which helped a lot. I had a CPN as well as access to Crisis Team. You must talk to someone.
Regarding Sectioning I was sectioned 3 years ago. I did a "voluntary" section which means after 3 days you can leave. Better than an enforced one which I I think is either 21 or 28 days. It was not as bad as I thought it would be and when I was discharged I had a lot of support from Mental Health Services and still have a care co-ordinator whom I see every 3-4 weeks.
I think if you realise your panic attacks are affecting your everyday life and moods then you are half way to getting better!
Rachel08
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JustinaC
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JustinaC
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shadow
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Take care u not on your own we do understand. xx
Rachel08
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