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hi everybody new to this forum I am suffering from depression and anxiety at times and used citalopram from last 4.5 weeks but with no such good results I am bit health anxiety case my question is can somebody relate to me here within a day few times at least I feel I will come of this depression and anxiety and will leave my life again and than the same day I will feel no I will never come out of it is that normal ? Can anybody relate? Am I bipolar with rapid cycle ?but I don't have any mood swings prior this depression and anxiety came to my life 6weeks ago and even my depression and anxiety was not that bad before I went to these medication I don't know please can anybody help pleaseeee!!!!
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rachel62244 Leo786
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jen39193 Leo786
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From what you say your moods appear to be fluctuating daily, giving you concerns around bi-polar symptoms. I am not a clinician, and as far as I understand in the UK you reuire two full blown psychotic/mania episodes before they consider a full diagnosis. You speak of depression, and it comes like the tide, ebbing in and out. Stick with the meds, try to be productive in your day, attempting the llittle things that you get joy from. Listen to your body, rest, breathe, relax. The drugs can highten your anxiety, but they are trying to do their job, stick with it my friend as we are all in this journey together. Take Care
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rachel62244 Leo786
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katecogs Leo786
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Along the way your mood will be up and down to on these meds, until eventually it'll even out and the anxiety and depression will ease away.
I was ill for 15 years until these meds sorted me out, and have now been well ever since.
Its a tough journey on these meds, but waiting for things to happen is so worth it.
K x
rachel62244 katecogs
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katecogs rachel62244
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This is perfectly normal in the early few months on this type of meds. Feeling good, then plummet again and feel you're back to square one. This pattern will continue for a while as you recover and should even out to feeling good all the time eventually. It's a long slow process unfortunately and you need to try the meds for about 3-5 months before you can see if they're the ones for you.
When you're in the grip of it all you do wonder what it was like to be normal. It's hard to be patient, but if you've felt good for 2 weeks already then things are surely beginning to happen for you. Just let the feelings be there, carry on and you'll find they'll disappear again.
K x
rachel62244 katecogs
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katecogs rachel62244
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it does get easier.
rachel62244 katecogs
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All SSRI's take a long time to work unfortunately. It's worth persevering for a good 3-4 months plus before you can see if they'll work. It's very hard waiting for them to get into your system.
K x
rachel62244 katecogs
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katecogs rachel62244
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Often there is nothing making people unhappy - it's just the illness. You will improve ....... persevere x
K x
rachel62244 katecogs
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katecogs rachel62244
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See how the extra increase goes.
I've heard from other people they aren't improving, then suddenly things start happening. So fingers crossed it's your turn now :-)
K x
rachel62244 katecogs
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Remember, when you're recovering your mood will be up and down. You won't just wake up feeling better. It'll creep up on you. Some days you feel good and think you're winning, and the next you'll be back down that dark hole again. That pattern will continue whilst you recover until the dark hole gets less and less and then no more. Took me 3-4 months before I started noticing things, then about 6 months I was feeling quite good and from there continued to improve even more.
Dont forget that you may get an anxiety increase with a dose increase ..... you might not, but if you do it will only be for a short while.
Dont apologise for keep asking :-) - I know how you feel exactly, and assurance and support is so vital when you're not well.
When you're ill you can't ever see a way out, but when you're better you'll look back and see if all so much clearer.
K x
rachel62244 katecogs
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Yes I have a few days of 90% then woke up few days later to anxiety then makes me vomit, this up and down makes me feel I'll never get there. I'm not a depressed low person I'm a happy caring person so its so out of the norm yet so like my first episode of pnd. I really need to stop talking haha but no one understands they just think I'm 'sad' if only eh xxx
katecogs rachel62244
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I'm no expert, but we all seem to arrive at this illness through many different paths, and it's recovering that's the main focus now. Mine started a long time before I had children, and was caused from prolonged stressful events. Some people thrive on stress, and some reach a tipping point.
Many of us have had many fears like you - you aren't alone. I used to hate being alone as was scared, which only added to my fears. I've also been a complete mess in the past, thinking I'd never get better. The mind plays amazing tricks on us when we're ill and our nerves are 'raw' ...... but remember, it's the illness working, and not your true self.
Have you any books specifically on PND? I can't recommend any as not read any on that particular subject, but some books I found a great source of help are Self Help for your Nerves and others in that series, written by Dr Claire Weeks. They cover nervous illness, agoraphobia and other fears, but she writes in a really clear way that helped me understand and unravelled some of the mystery, taking some of the fear away.
It seems once we get into this illness, we follow similar paths of how we feel - it must be just the physical course of action our bodies take when presented with the illness.
For me, reading many books and then eventually taking SSRI's, I recovered. I also have a huge respect for mental illness - nobody can ever envisage what it's like unless they've suffered. Even doctors and the mental health professionals - they can't truly wear the teeshirt 'been there, done that'.
You can alway message me too
K xx
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