Feeling nothing at all..
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I am so done. I am exhausted. I am scared.
I got married in September 2015 the happiest I have ever been in my entire life so in love.. so over joyed. Woke up November 2015 feeling nothing at all.
No feelings. Completely empty. No feelings of love.. no feelings of sadness.. just nothing.
Has anyone else ever expereinced this? Please help me feel less alone.. is this apart of my depression? Is this normal?
Thank you in advance.
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Hes1980 tan77
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Stay strong
Helen USA
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lit53944 tan77
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I was one of those who would think if there is a problem, suck it up and get over it.
I can't remember caring about things until a year or two ago.
It's awful to admit but I didn't have much feelings for my family. I feel disgusting saying that because it took a failed suicide attempt to realise I do care. I care about my family (well the four members of the family I love) I care about strangers, it hurts me when I see bad things on the news, when I see someone upset in the streets.
I did a complete 180.. I think your emotions will come back to you. I honestly do. I sometimes fall into that state occassionaly of condemning everything and everyone but it never lasts long.
I think it comes with the depression territory I'm glad I finally learnt what being kind and loving things is. I hate the thought of who I was back then. It's probably why I was disliked as a teenager.
You'll be ok. Don't worry. x
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elizabeth2244 tan77
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Its hard to love and be loved when you are depressed
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I also find furry family members ease the pain of being alone, I really wish you all the best.
I admire you for fighting through all of that. You're a very strong person.
yvonne81394 carole28488
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My only child died in a terrible accident over a year ago and he was the one thing good that came from my marriage. Now he's gone and there are no grandkids either so I'm truly alone, left with an alcoholic husband addicted to pain meds who is almost disabled now and I fear I will be left taking care of him if his health doesn't improve. I don't see that happening because he won't take care of himself. He's one of those men who believe it's t he woman's place to make everything better. That's too much to put on one person. So, I'm plotting an exit strategy at 66. He's threatened me in the past when I wanted a divorce so I have to make a plan because I have no one to help nor would I put anyone else in danger. He's obsessed with guns and is terrible to be around more than fifteen minutes at a time! But I'm a smart lady, I have my health (I hope) and if all holds out, I will happily be free by this time next year. We had some happy times but the bad times just over ruled them. My son was my hope and my help and now he's gone so it's just me and my furbabies. They get me through the day too.
There is a tiny side to my husband that is tolerable but it's rare. It's that side I fell in love with that has been overcome by alcohol and pills. He's in a lot of physical pain which makes it even worse and he yells at me about everything. He knows and understand what he needs to do to get better but I think he actually enjoys his misery because it makes me miserable too. You can't win with someone like that. So I'm leaving after 44 years.
My best to you!
Bid2012 tan77
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I completely can relate to how your feelings, I regularly feel like I am detached from my surroundings and dear family & friends. Unfortunately it's the depression making you feel this way.
I also got married last September, the most amazing day, the build up was wonderful and I loved every minute then came back from honeymoon and my depression and anxiety took hold again. Currently struggling daily with feelings of hopelessness, feel so alone even tho I have a good support network around.
It's very positive that your trying to plan things as distraction is a great way of bringing you into the here & now.
Just keep fighting & talking through feelings and thoughts on here, I feel I've really benefitted from talking to others in similar situations.
Also know your never alone
take care x B x
alyssa57637 tan77
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