Heavy anxiety, social phobia, depression, suicide thoughts

Your not alone, so many people are going through exactly the same, I'm 22 I also suffer panic attacks every day of my life I always feel on edge, I'm scared of watching the news, I feel sick all the time so I barley eat, I have never suffered domestic abuse I have been with my partner 6 years and we have two children one is 13 weeks old the other is 4. I find life a struggle everyday it's awful waking up thinking something bad is going to happen or getting pains from stress/anxiety that scares me all the time. I don't want to die either, we just need to be strong, we deserve a happy life, I have councilling and that helps. What this is is its a rut that can last a few weeks/months/years. It's all down to us how we cope. Do things that make you happy, talk to people because talking helps, go for nice walks and do things that make you have a purpose in life. I often panic because I'm a stay at home mum and everyday is the same for me and I always think 'is this it for me?' Will i ever get a job or get any friends, but it will happen one day, we can get there we just need to try stay positive, don't denie yourself of happiness.

You are not alone. One out of seven people you see live with anxiety disorders. Surprisingly research is a slow go on this stuff. They are now moving to the gut and making a new med with pre biotics and pro biotics. It would not surpride me to find out this is from bacteria or parasite doing this to people one dat. Theres too many people like this now.  i keep holding onto they figured out ulcers and h pylori so hoping some researcher has a break through. What i do know is effects our mechanisms for coping. Which is interesting. I dont know anymore. I do know if im feeling healthy im strong enough to push through it and funstiin normally. Its when i get ill that things start going awry. So i just kind of matk rhe calendar and tell my self its temporary and nextweek will be better. It usually is too but that week not so happy at all. I get the burden thing completely. Sometimes it annoys me people feel drained or burdened because when everyone else is ill in my home im the one caring for them and no one seems to care what tole it takes on me. I find some doctors are comforting and some are coldhearted and just want to throw a pill at you and if you have side effects or dont respond they become annoyed. Hard to believe so much medical schooling is required to write a perscription. Really only need pharmacists for that. You are not a burden at all you are vulnerable because you dont feel well. Remeber one out of seven. Cbt is useful. I would suggest an audiobook. And maybe youll find a medication that works for you. Many counselors will privately work with you and on the web with skype and stuff if your fears are too high.