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Im 32 and suffer with depression and anxiety attacks iv never felt like this before and yet to get to see a GP about my problems.
I live alone and lead a very boring work all the time life. My problems seem to block out everything i have and cloud my judgment.
All i can see is no way out and with only one decision to make... "end it"
Im so scared about going to sleep at night due to horrific nightmares that seem so real,
Is life meant to be like this, am i better off dead and letting the more successful, more important people live out a comfortable life.
Eveyone says "things can only get better"
But in my mind my time on this planet has finished.
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amanda35274 trev95122
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Hi trev im suffering severe depression & anxiety. Its been ongoing over the years. At least 20+. For me to say ull come out the otherside as youre state of mind is now wouldnt help u. It didnt me!! But im 6 weeks post suicidal phase but still in the thought processes only in heighened panic & anxiety.. we arent alone were worth something wether u believe me right now or not. Please seek help from a&e crisis team if yr feeling suicidal ryt now ive tried 3 tyms over the years but now i have a daughtet its not an option. Dont give up.dont let this black hope get bigger. Go gp, hosp, talk on here. But temember its final.... there is no going back. Bug hugs & complete understanding of every feeling ur goin thru ryt now, m :0)
trev95122 amanda35274
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I want to be able to go out and enjoy what splenders this world has but the cost of the things is unreachable for me....
how can i enjoy life when living is suching my earnings up dry...
I am seriously stuck in a massive hole without even a spoon to dig my way out....
amanda35274 trev95122
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Aww trev ive honestly been there with not a pot to p***in. Pardon my french. And somehow, somewat thru a voluntary job @ a local church once led to a small p.t.job n things got a little easier to dig!! Wish i had all the answers hun. This world isnt an easy place but if just one good thing happens maybe a helping hand from mind the charity advocates they will help u with everything & will try their damn hardest against an unjust system that can make it harder for genuine ppl to enjoy when well the beauty out there. And what a life with some resources, help, and friendship has to offer. Hence i say this lookin ahead as im not there yet. Just try not to give up. Maybe something goods just around the corner.. friends on here a good start xx new on here & im finding comfort already xxx
amanda35274
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amanda35274 trev95122
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light85179 trev95122
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Just know that you’re not alone, I’ve been through far worse than what you’re going through right now and I didn’t give up. I just found things that made life worth living. Especially knowing that there are people out there going through similar situation as me, Why not try to find those people and become friends, then we can experience life together.
trev95122 light85179
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borderriever trev95122
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All work and no play makes Trev a dull boy
You mention problems blocking out your judgement, work out on your problems. Take each on and write down what each of these problems are. Now break down each problem into small bites. Attack on problem at a time and take one small bite and attend to that then move onto that next bite. When stuck on the former, look at the next problem and split that into little bite and proceed on through until the problems are solved, little bites make larger bites and that can lead to the conclusion of your concerns
You nee to get out and enjoy your life after work, at least three times a week and on weekends get out and about, make friends by joining clubs or activities.
If you feel low and you are frightening yourself, regards Suicide call NHS Helpline on Tel111 and explain your fears, they will Triage and decide how to help.
Stop not going to see your GP, get down to the clinic appointment in hand. Make a list of your fears, concerns etc and refer to the paper when talking to your GP.
Your GP may/not arrange some CBT too settle Your Mood
BOB
trev95122 borderriever
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shaz6098 trev95122
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I have had fantastic support from my GP (and staff at the surgery). They have supported me through two years of hell. It took a long time for me to ask for help!
Hope your appointment goes well tomorrow!
Best wishes
borderriever trev95122
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BOB
kelly8973 trev95122
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amanda35274 kelly8973
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Aww lovely words kelly & so true. The finality of wanting the peace of feeling better is such a distressing thing that lots of us im sure have tried or contemplated & thankfully didnt go tjru with. Xx
yasmine333 trev95122
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Hi Trev,
Firstly how you're feeling is completely normal when suffering from Depression & Anxiety.
The fact you're still able to get up go to work & continue life is a testimony to how strong you regardless of how you're feeling right now.
You've taken a big step forward by talking to us & I definitely think you should see your GP & just tell them how you feel. Hopefully taking charge of the situation will help you feel better.
One step at a time.
We're all here for you & understand everything you're going through
X
trev95122
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Thankyou all so much for your kind words/comments I understand im not the only one suffering in this way, its hard because all i want to do is shut down, but i drag myself to work everyday in the hope for a better future. Sadly most days is a nightmare! Im looking forward to seeing the doctor, but scared of the outcome!
I dont have much support at home as i feel talking about this to family members puts them down, and i wouldnt want that. I feel everyone around me is happy and im having to put fake smiles on and say "im ok" when asked how i am when to be honest im not.... its like living two lives... iv been bottling my problems for years, crying and screaming sometimes helps....
thankfully i have you kind people for advice and personal experiences to share and I appreciate everyone of you.
I will post my doctors results....
Scared like i said but i know im taking the first few steps to recovery...
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