I feel so lonely and don't want to be hear anymore

Your not alone, dear. Many on this site are depressed.   Steve 

no partner should make you feel like the way you are ,wether it be male or female,hes playing games by still sleeping with you so id tell him to do 1 even tho its hard at the moment its 4 the best in the long run,kids will understand when there mature enough to get it,then with your depressed side id go see some1 and speak about it ,and see your doc see what they say,just know lifes a rollercoaster of ups and downs but you will be ok at the end of it and maybe even a bit stronger 4 it

Hi Claire - Are you divorced from your husband or is it just a separation? He sounds like he wants the best of both worlds. It is cruel of him to lead you on, and the fact he was still sleeping with you after he had met someone else speaks volumes. You were with him for twenty years and then he decided he wanted freedom. Let him have it. You need to move on, particularly if he doesn't love you anymore. Time changes things and relationships are no exemption.

Find a counsellor/psychologist to discuss your situation. Suicide is a very serious and permanent solution. How would your kids feel if you chose that path? I'll tell you: they will find a way to balme themselves, and will wonder all their lives whether they could have said/done something that would have prevented it. Your husband will continue on after the shock and will blame you for being weak. An overdose can backfire, and you may awake in a disabled conditon. You need to take it easy on yourself and plot a new path without your husband. It will be difficult initially, there will be much adjustment, but it will be worth it and you will feel empowered by your own strength. Throw away the rose cloloured glasses about the past. It's a new day. Best of luck to you and your exciting future.

Hi Claire. I hope you;re feeling better. Although i don't have kids with my ex partner. I was with him for 8 years and we lived together for 2 years. He also carried on sleeping with me after we broke up. right now i do feel really depressed and on pills. but i have also been seeing a councillor and gradually trying to move past everything. I know what you;re going through is a lot and with kids involved and number of years you;ve invested in this relationship is heartbreaking. But believe me when i say it will get better. try and talk to people, freinds, family etc. go out with your kids, occupy your time. do things you love to do. It;s good you have been to the doctors. Thats making the first step. You will get peace soon. 

Dear Claire, how are you doing? I'm sorry, I'm new to the site, so only just seen your post. Please, no more overdoses, if not for your own sake, but your kids. Your ex sounds like he wants best of both worlds (as mentioned earlier) and it's not bloody on stringing you along like that!

Hope your meds kick in soon and you get some much needed support.

Take care xx