I'm not happy..,
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I'm not happy.
I'm really trying to be happy.
I'm taking my meds (gabapentin 150mg and diazepam).
I'm not able to get any counselling or psychology appts at the moment as I've had my allotted amount, I'm really struggling since the talking therapies have ended.
I feel very very agitated, not sleeping as usual, and just seem to either be unbelievably hyperactive/restless or very sleepy.
I've had to move closer to my "trauma" site that happened so long, for reasons beyond my control, and I didn't think it'd effect me too much, but every time I drive past the place I feel sick and dizzy and like I want to drive my car through a brick wall.
I just can't seem to get a hold of myself.
It's like repeatedly striking a match and it not lighting. I'm trying so hard. I don't know what else to do?
I just want to feel at peace. Xxx
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susan45954 audrey96558
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audrey96558 susan45954
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Currently carer to my disabled partner.
No help from his family.
My "trauma" as it seems to be labeled was me being beaten to the extent of brain contusions... I didn't get any justice as the person who did it was underage and from a troubled background so the CPS couldn't take it further.. Despite police involvement etc,
I have to wait 6 months until I can next get counselling sadly despite being classed in the severe range for depression and anxiety.
There just isn't enough funding I guess.
But where does that leave me?
xxx
susan45954 audrey96558
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audrey96558 susan45954
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He had a botched spinal surgery, he was about to join emergency services whilst doing his degree and part time job, surgery went wrong.
He's in his mid 20s, used to do martial arts and boxing, now I have to help him get his socks on, wash, eat, and he's facing his future in a wheelchair.
Seems so unfair, but I guess that's life?
xxx
susan45954 audrey96558
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audrey96558 susan45954
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Friends since we were 16/17..
Together as a couple for 7 years.
He's the most perfect man for me.
Doesn't make things easier but I do count my blessings!
Xxx
peter2824 audrey96558
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