Major depression, I need some advice please

Ohhh sarah. My ? goes out to u. Xxx i had the same childhood although diff issues. Ive tried to put them in the past but its shaped who i am. I have broken that cycle for my daughter so she never has had the life i did. Its left me emotionally unstable & although in (recovery) of bulimia the weight gain with pills really bothers me. Although with this bout as always i never really eat or have an appetite when anxious, depressed, or suicidal so ive lost a lot of weight these last few mths xxx im so glad u have spoken on here to ppl who know how it feels. Unfortunately our loved ones even will struggle if they haven't gone thru it.. they try but it must be so hard also for them to see us so ill. Therapy over the yrs hasnt always worked for me sarah. Awaiting cbt @ mo. Who knows maybe this tym it cud work hey?? Thinking of u. Ur not alone now, mandy xxx

If you ever feel Suicidal you should always talk to your GP, make that appointment.

If you need support straight away contact NHS Information Line on Tel111. Explain how you are feeling and they will triage then decide if treatment is needed. At this time turning up at A and E can be problematic and should only be done if you have done something that puts you at risk.

Whatever you do please see your Doctor and explain how you are feeling, any feeling or consideration of suicide needs looking into and Depression is treatable, over time. Make a list of your fears and concerns and use that to explain your needs and concerns, this will save time at your Surgery.

When I was young, like you I had a bad family and it took me decades to control and start a new life. Medications can and will make you put on weight, I am now 20stone, all caused in my eyes to medications I have taken over the years.

It is sad when people we love cannot understand mental health issues, so it is up to you to try and explain how you are feeling. Sometimes a CPN can help with this.

All I can say is I have suffered a great deal over the years, you are not alone. I am here

BOB

Hello Sarah, oh hugs sweetie, I am in a very similar place to you. I am 53 and still not resolved issues that my mother should answer for. I have thought about being dead and on Sunday, I had to phone the Samaritans. Like you I don't think I would ever do it mainly because of the animals I have rd homes. How long has the depression been going on for.?

All I want to do is sleep, I can only just get myself to work but sit crying at my desk. I am on 50mg sertraline, gp is sending me for more therapy but to be honest I have upped my meds to 75mg and that seems to have stopped the tears. I can oh empathise but everyone on here is lovely and supportive. I am sure we will get through this, my boyfriend doesn't understand and isn't that supportive either.

Hugs xxx

Its so hard going through this.  There are several of us going through it and pushing so hard to try to get some equilibrium back into our lives.  Even my dr has said she is at a loss what to try next as i dont fit the usuall criteria of using anti deps, they just don't do it for everybody.  Stay stromg and keep,the faith, this will surely pass.  There is a good group on this site so keep talking.

Oh dearly me. I'm forever getting yelled at! I get called lazy atleast 10 times a day. It seems like nobody else understands no matter how you try and explain it. I have felt just like you do now. It comes and goes. I previously saw a therapist and now I'm having cbt. Can't really comment on that much at the moment. I'm trying to be patient. I wake up everyday with no energy. Then I hate myself even more when the house is a mess as I feel I have let everyone down. I was at my wits end. I'm just trying to be as hopeful as I can right now. Hope by talking on here you will find support.