My depression has returned
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After a very painful & difficult 5 months I had started to come out the other side a bit stronger & happier. But now I am right back where I started & the sadness, pain & loneliness has returned. I know lots of people but I am lonely, people say they care but I feel unloved & unwanted. The tears have hardly stopped in the last 48 hours but there is nobody to wipe them away. Do I want to go on, I really don't know.
I have recently been discharged from the community mental health team, altho was referred to a psychologist for assessment re possible longer term support but he didn't think I needed it. Can't get an appointment to see GP but even if I could there is nothing she can do to help or ease my suffering. I'm trying to hold myself together but don't know if I can this time.........
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lynne82155 Whatamess
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or you may have a mental health crisis team in your area and contact them.
You just need a little more help
Stay Strong
gary78460 Whatamess
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Whatamess gary78460
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JackDM Whatamess
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I believe most NHS trusts have a triage system in place for mental health. The people who get priority treatment tend to be people who are floridly psychotic, who present a real and imminent danger to others and, or themselves. Next in line come people with hyper manic symptoms who don't represent an immediate danger to others or themselves but whose behaviour is very likely to elicit a hostile response in some people.
Sadly, and disgracefully in my opinion, people suffering the horrible torment of depression aren't high on the list of mental health priorities for the NHS.
If you are genuinely feeling suicidal then you must do what Lynne suggested and call your GP or your local psychiatric crisis team.
Here are some things I've done in the past when I've felt things were too much. I've paid to go into a private hospital for a month of treatment and respite. I've gone and stayed in a Bhuddist temple, which was very peaceful and gave me some time out from the pressure of normal everyday life. There have been times though when I was telling my doctor I wasn't well and needed to be admitted to hospital and was ignored, resulting in my depressive illness becoming acute and me being detained under the mental health act.
My point is there are things that you can do for yourself. However if you are suffering acutely and you are not looking after yourself properly as a result (not eating regularly, not bathing regularly, not leaving the house, not doing any house work etc) then you must phone your doctor and ask to see a CPN. I've just listed some symptoms that if you mention, should definitely result in you at least being assessed.
Sorry this is a long reply, but I really feel for anyone in your position. I don't think you're getting the help you deserve.
I hope things begin to look up for you. Keep a hold on hope.