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I'm on day 43 of 20mg. I was feeling a tad better, as in I felt kinda numb but not as anxious. Now I suddenly feel about 20 times worse. I keep shaking and twitching, i can feel adreniline rushing around, my head feels like its stuffed and pressure (possibly due to muggy weather), my sleep is worse and my thoughts are paranoid, bad or just plain weird/hard to control. My heart keeps racing and I have no motivation to get out of bed or do anything, when before I could atleast force myself to do something and my appetite is gone. I keep wanting to cry or feel like I'm gonna panic/lose it/get frustrated but the tablets make me so numb it's difficult. The dr told me it was normal and to stay on them and I can either up my dose or change to a different type of pills alltogether but both options scare me. I just want to be happy again but I don't see a way out. Everything looks weird, feels confusing and just scary.
I have uni exams at the moment, 2 left but I feel like I don't care about them but I wasn't too bad up until a few days before the first one. I do have a bit to worry about but I feel stressed and anxious as if there is nothing to be stressed about, if that makes sense.
The dr said the extra stress of exams isn't helping and to stay on my current dose until after exams. Is this all normal? Could it be exams stressing me out even when I feel so careless about them? I keep getting scared I'm seriously ill when I know I'm not. It just helps to have reassurance that all my symptoms are normal.
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Yes this is quite normal. As you recover you can start to feel better and then suddenly be hit with more anxiety etc. These are called setbacks (blips) and it will disappear again. Try and accept them as part of recovery, and yes it can be the extra stress of having exams. We can't avoid normal life, but your body is overreacting at the moment, where as normally you'd probably feel just a bit stressed and nothing else. Don't change anything, carry on with your life as best you can, let the feeling be there (it'll want to stick around anyway), and you'll find that in time you'll begin to feel calm again.
These blips will come and go for a while, but they'll get less intense as time goes by until they finally stop.
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What you are going through is normal, I remember going through that, I remember one night I just couldn't settle and by settle I mean stop, I walked back and forth in my flat for about 6 hours, every time I stopped I wanted to cry and was shaking and everything, didn't want to be in my own skin! This feeling starts to subside, but you will get the odd wobble as I call them, I've been on the tablets since Jan and had a wobble Tuesday, but I now know how to deal with it and that it will pass. Are you seeing a therapist? One of the best things I did! Helped to just talk to someone who understood and didn't judge me!
Good luck, you will start to trust yourself again I promise! And you will come out the other side!
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