severly depressed
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Were do i start im in my twentys have two young children a husband a really well paid job ive got the house the car... my children are ny life over the past year ive been feeling ao depressed im always driving and thinking i should just drive my car into somethink but this isnt just it i think about the speed ill have to do it to kill my self who i would have to write letters to what the hell is wrong with me? ive thought and read up on how to hang my self and what i would need to do it were i would do it ... ive mentioned how im feeling to my mum and husband and they just brush it of laugh at it tell me in being stupid ... im usnder so much pressure in the sole earner i work 70 hours im never at home ive discussed cutting it down but no i cant... im self employeed... i work nights barely get any sleep which i dont think is helping my mood ive never been so unhappy in all my life i dont take drugs i dont drink.. i tried medication but the doctor took me of it as i was unwell... i feel stuck... when i do kill my self everything will be paid for noone will have to worry about money or anything... i feel so worthless so used so sh*t... ive rung the samaritans when im crying in the car for hours which i do before work which is so stupid because i dont mind the work i leave hours early just so i can think... i didnt feel the smaritans worked for me because i dont want to talk ... i talk everyday in my job .
i dont no why i have written this post as never have i written anything before.
just i can talk to myself i suppose without being laughed at and judged
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orange12933 lou73688
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RHGB lou73688
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Maybe I am not reading between the lines very well, but could you be more specific about what is making you so unhappy?
lorraine52317 lou73688
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I read through your post and really feel for you. I know what you are saying is not relating to your material assets. I think you feel you very depressed even though you have the things you need. I think you are on a 'burn out' and this paves the way for deep depression. The fact you are looking up suicide methods suggests to me you are very serious and very unwell. Your body and brain are desperately tired and please get yourself to your doctor. If you are tried an antidepressant and it made you ill, it doesn't mean you should discount all antidepressants. They do tend to have side effects when you first start them, but they do pass and you will feel better again. please make an urgent gp appointment and get his/her views. I also think you need a holiday from work, to recharge your energy and emotional wellbeing.
Please let me know how you get on.
god bless ♥♥
xarjia lou73688
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Even though you have thoughts of killing yourself because you are fed up of life, just remember that there is help out there which can help you change the way you feel by challenging your thought processes .
Please go to your gp and get referred to a psychiatrist. CBT training and possibly medication can help. Talking to the right professional can make a big difference .
jenny99721 lou73688
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orange12933 jenny99721
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Tamarind lou73688
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