SUFFERING SEVERE DEPRESSION AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AFTER COMING OFF SEROXAT OVER THE PAST 4/6 WEEKS.

Been on a emergency appointment to my GP

Been on an emergency appointment with my GP and I am truly feeling less disturbed now.  I want to get well now, and the 'couldn't care less' feeling has reduced greatly.  I know I must fight the good fight and I will do that.  Thank you for caring enough to reply.  You are obviously an A1 person and I wish you a long and healthy life.  I now feel confident I will get there and must learn to be a bit more patient with myself.  Sincere regards to you,   Jill

Thank you so much for your reply.  I am due to visit my GP next Tuesday and will discuss things through with her in detail.  This has been a horrendous experience, but I know I must fight this and survive.  Thank you for your concern.  I am less distressed today and hope this improvement will continue.  I want to enjoy the rest of my life and maybe that is the one thing that will pull me through the dark times.  Take care of yourself too.  Remember you are very important to this world.  Anyone who cares like you is a very special person.  Sincere regards,   Jill

Thanks for your advice.  Been taking Seroxat for 15 years as an OCD sufferer following a 30 years marriage where I was abused at all levels and threatened not to dare to think of leaving!! But realised Seroxat was not working as it did, and the horrendous nightmares that I suffered occasionally with it was something I could obviously do without. So  I have been weaned off the Seroxat for about 4 to 6 weeks, being prescribed diazepine for about 3 of those weeks to take with my greatly reduced intake of S.  Two nights ago my GP started me on Mirtazapine which has helped me sleep and my tears have dried up a great deal.  My daughter has been on the phone (she lives a couple of hundred miles away) after doing internet research on Serozat, and is sending some of the info to my husband and I by post. She thinks that being without the Seroxat could be the main cause of my dreadfuly mental state.   My GP has said that I can also continue to take diazepine as well as the Mirt for the moment, but I really do not want to just sleep night and day!!  She has asked me to go and see her next Tuesday and I will talk things through with her again.  She has seemed anxious about me and paid great attention to me rather than studying her computer screen for the whole time of the appointment.  This last month has been nothing short of a terrible nightmare and I am praying hard that I will soon become well enough to be a useful member of society and enjoy the many wonders of this amazing world once again (and at least just try to not worry too much about the endless horrible things that seem to behappening so regularly nowadays??).  Thanks you sincerely for your concern and your reply.  Greatly appreciated.  Hope you have a long and healthy life.  God Bless You,     Jill

Thanks so much for your reply.  You might have noted I took the Seroxat for about 15 years and my GP has been weaning me off it for about 4 to 6 weeks.  I have know for about a year the Seroxat was not working properly anymore, and my memory etc. was getting worse and worse.  She gave me the diazapine to help me during the cold turkey phase, especially when it came to taking just one S every other day.  Then almost a week ago when I had totally come off the S, she has prescribed the Mirt, also saying that I can take the diazapine as well if necessary.  So for two nights the Mirt has helped me sleep   -   and hopefully I will not gain weight taking it.  I am already a size 16 so could do without another problem!!  Perhaps this horrific time I have had feeling utterly suicidal has been the shock to my system of the loss of the Seroxat.  During this period I have also suffered the nightmare of having to make the decision my 12 year old Schnauzer had to be said goodbye to because of his ill health, so things have been like hell on earth I must admit. I realise I have only been taking the Mirtazapine for 2 nights, but have just realised my constant crying has ceased to a massive degree.  So, with another appointment my GP has planned for me for next Tuesday, I am hoping my mental health will gradually improve.  I have suffered from OCD since before I started the Seroxat following a marriage in which I was constantly terrified of my abusive and threatening husband.    So, with everything crossed I hope the new M drug will help sort out this confused soul, and let me enjoy this world which besides the horror it seems now to suffer constantly, still has a magnificent and amazing side too.  Sincere regards to you.  Thanks again.  Jill

Thanks so much for replying.  As I said I have been taking Seroxat for 15 years, one heck of a long time I realise.  The diazepine which was only prescribed for me because my GP was weaning me off the Seroxat starting about 4 to 6 weeks ago, does seem to keep me calmer, and as yet I have only taken Mirtazapine for the last two nights.  They have let me sleep which is a miracle in itself for me, but although my GP has said I can continue to take some diazapine during the daytime as well, they also make me want to sleep. Obviously sleeping all day and night is not going to cure any of my problems really, is it?  I suffer from OCD, a nightmare itself, and coupled with living for 30 years with someone who abused me at all levels and whom even when the children had grown up and left  home, I was still terrified to risk leaving him because of the threats he made to me if I did dare to leave him.I currently have no desire to 'be here' the way I am, and have to admit I am a bit afraid to just take the diazapine and nothing else.  Perhaps you are right and I need to give it a go.  I will think about what you  have said and on a visit my GP has asked me to attend next Tuesday, I will talk through it  with her. She does however appear somewhat 'nervous' about how she is dealing with my problems, and I realise my case must be very difficult for her.  I do not envy her trying to sort someone  like me out.  All I want is a peaceful life, where my brain 'worries' are mild enough to allow me to enjoy this beautiful world and my wonderful  family.  I have a Mam aged 94 in residential care, who is thankfully in good mental health, and I know I need to be here for her.  Currently I  am feeling so low I am finding it very difficult  keeping intact my realisations of what anything 'stupid' I might do will impact on loving family and friends too. I want to live a long life, but obviously with a brain that is 'peaceful and sensible' enough to let me  enjoy this amazing world.  Thank you again for your reply.  Be careful what you chose to do with the drugs you take, and change your GP if yours does not seem able to look you straight in the eye when you are talking to her   -   rather than staring at the screen they all generally seem glued to.  I must admit my current GP does NOT gaze at her screen, at least with my recent and current problems. My very best wishes to you for a long and healthy future.  Keep your chin up and fight the good fight.  Surely we can both to it?  Regards,  Jill

Sorry to hear that neither Seroxat nor Amitriptyline agreed with you, but they and other drugs do work for other people.  It is not true that they put us through hell as a generalisation.  It is just that the people with bad side effects post on forums more than those who are all right.