the most terrible depression i have had
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HI I would like to know if someone has experienced tremendous, awful depression as i am living....terrible nightmares of my past life, of my fears , obssessions....i am a zombie, i cant concentrate, i cant go outside wandering with no strenght in my legs i just walk down my street, i feel lightheaded, everything is distorted, i cant speak to anyone, i am too tired i cant go buy food, i cant bathe, draw, read, just want to die each time i open my eyes, feel huge weakness , i just wake up, and sit looking nothing, just say yes or no, cant focus, cant go to a room and choose a clothe or i have to think really hard ho to brush my teethand so on, ic an go out in pyjamas i wont really be aware (i havent done it but...) i can speak to anyone in the street just want to shout i cant hold anymore....i have been to hospital, and have taken meds but big side effects,one year like this and everyday!!! i just cant do anything i mean anything...fear ,no issues, even if i try hard i cant hold it , please someone recovered while being like this, disconnected like big ptsd and depression., tired of even looking at something: too difficult.....one year , every day like this. my mother is doind everything i feel dead full of nightmares....thank you in advance , sorry for this sad post, a big depression must not last or at least i must have progress, small ones..but nothing...
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Charmcat anne92030
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amanda35274 anne92030
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Hi anne, u sound like i was 3 of the times ive had SEVERE depression which in my case was only treatable in hospital once i got to the stage you are at. No they aren't great places to be but the world outside u dont need to worry about & the horrible feelings soon go once you get therapy & the right meds to get u on the path to feeling better. Xxx sooo feel for u. Its hell on earth i know. Please seek help asap xxx thoughts are with u. Talk on here if it helps while you decide. But if suicidal hun. Dont wait... xxxx seek help. Were here for you xx
anne92030 amanda35274
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maria_1963 anne92030
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I think so many of us can relate to you , i must certainly can last few months an still do , my psychiatrist sent me a email yesterday reminding me of taking my tablets as they are helping me - i have been taking these antidepressants since 2015 an they are most certainly not helping me , like you i stay in bed as much as possible , had a bath yesterday , washed hair - felt good as hadn't done so since week before , i felt refreshed , house work - haven't hoovered since last Autumn , i wash up but only because i have a cat an need her to have clean dishes - i won't allow her to have dirty dishes however i feel , my parents have been doing my washing as i live in a flat an the laundrette near me closed a few years ago , so i always dress smartly when i have to go out - appointments . That person who told you would end up in hospital for old people because you have old people's depression is an absolute disgrace , we all suffer from depression in different ways , we are individual an for someone to say that is disgusting - if that person is a professional then he needs to get out of that job . You need to know there are some decent therapists , psychiarists , etc out there , my previous psychiatrist was an old man of old school an should had retired , i dreaded going to the Mental Health Centre to see him but late Summer 2015 he left to go to another MH Centre in the County - great relief as the new psychiatrist is younger , more laid back - the room is totally different , casual seats , etc , please take care an remember many of us can relate with you xx
amanda35274 maria_1963
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I was once told by a mental health care nurse when in a psychiatric unit on suicide watch when pregnant saying..... do u not wake up & look @ the trees and breathe in and thank god u are alive. There are terminally ill people across the way who would swap with u in a heartbeat!! I could of comitted a bloody crime that day. If only it was that easy. My being responsible for my baby growing inside me was the only reason i bothered to kp going. I couldnt believe it!! I was a rock ckick back in the day but to have someone mantra woodstock nature @ me at a tym like tht was just verging on ridiculous xxx
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anne92030 amanda35274
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amanda35274 anne92030
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anne92030 maria_1963
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anne92030 amanda35274
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oh i can relate................no one can understand that we can't and we are trying so hard
anne92030 maria_1963
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anne92030 amanda35274
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amanda35274 anne92030
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