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Hey everyone I posted 2weeks ago and I was feeling very suicidal, unmotivated and upset. I was on week 4 of fluoxetine. Since I posted that about a week later I was beginning to feel like myself again. I stopped thinking about my anxiety more and more and found myself a lot happier and I was pretty much back to my old self. I decided that I felt able to go out with my friends clubbing since I hadn't seen them in so long that weekend and it was fine! I had drank a little bit of alcohol that night even though I planned not too since I'm trying to stay away from all that til I'm better but. Despite drinking the alcohol it didn't seem to have any major effects on me, except that I felt symptoms of depersonalisation that next day and for a few days after. I'm not really too bothered by depersonalision as I started experiencing symptoms since I was 16 (two years ago). The symptoms always come and go depending on stressful stages during my life. I also know that alcohol can play a part in this but I decided to ignore that and went clubbing that following week two nights in a row despite feeling depersonalision. Both nights were actually good except Friday night where I was feeling really drunk on an empty stomach I had to calm myself down because I didn't feel like I was really there. But again I ignored it and when I got into the club I drank thoughout the night up until 6am. The next day I felt really tired and also just not feeling like I was really there. It's now Sunday I've been in bed all day and reluctant to move because I'm expierencing depersonalision really intensely and although I have been through it its just really frustrating. I feel like when I get though one milestone another one comes along.. I know that I probably didn't help it by drinking alcohol but I just wanted to feel like myself again and didn't want my anxiety to control my life. I want to be able to do the things I used to do but then my anxiety is just like no I control you. I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coater because one moment I'm feeling like myself and the next I'm 100 steps behind that. I feel like I've been on fluxtonie for like months but it's only been 6 weeks... Ugh I just need advice to be strong and get through this
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katecogs kaseydawn
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Sometimes the down times might last a week or. 2, but don't worry, just keep on persevering and you'll find it'll pass in it's own time. Don't rush to up your dose either - the feeling will go away.
K x
katecogs
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Perseverance and patience xx
karen76145 katecogs
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katecogs karen76145
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Yes it happens so, so slowly - you hardly notice it happening. It's great when you start feeling good all the time :-)
K x
karen76145 katecogs
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kaseydawn katecogs
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katecogs kaseydawn
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Yes it's very frustrating waiting for the medication to work. Each minute being ill is unbearable and we just want it to stop now. It's hard to feel positive, hard to see the end result ........ but it will slowly happen. When you're better you'll feel like taking up running again. Can you go walking at the moment?
No worries, and it's not 'complaining' at all. We all want reassurance and encouragement - it's comforting :-)
Just ask away ....... that's what the forum is for :-)
K xx
peter18073 kaseydawn
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kaseydawn peter18073
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katecogs peter18073
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If people have never experienced anxiety / depression, they haven't an inkling of how it actually feels. You can tell them, describe the horror of it, but still the actual experience is way, way worse than anyone could imagine. Also because you look 'ok' people assume you must be fine. One friend said to me once, 'you're going on holiday next week, I'm sure when you've had a relaxing time away you'll come back all refreshed and better'. I explained that I'd be taking 'it' with me, and no doubt will be bringing 'it' back with me. And I did :-(
K :-)
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