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mike_1377
mike_1377

i honestly have no idea how to start, or even what to say but i'll go with the flow... i'm 19yrs old living in Mexico (been here my entire life) and i've been really, really depressed for a while now

its been about 1 month since it started being severe again, the last time i had it happen was in my birthday, february 14th, that's the last one i remember but i'm sure its not the only one

i never thought i would end up in some forums talking about this, but sometimes its just so much that you can't take it anymore and just need to spit it out

anyway, i don't know what else to say, i guess typing this helps a bit... i'll wait for some answers (even though i didn't ask anything?)

thanks for reading

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  • emmamia
    emmamia mike_1377

    Posted

    Talking works wonders sometimes! Sometimes rambling about nonsense is he best cure. You find yourself offloading things to people who will not judge you and only be here to help. I joined this forum the other day and not sure what I'm meant to do either haha. Have a great morning / day / evening....whatever it is there lol

    Emma

  • keepgoing
    keepgoing mike_1377

    Posted

    HI Mike.  Welcome biggrin  This is a great forum and you can ask questions, tell us how you feel (good or bad) or just have a chat with people who can relate to what you're saying.
  • mike_1377
    mike_1377

    Posted

    thank you both, much appreciated

    now to be honest i opened this forum again and started wondering why i did it if i'm fine, but given i did it in the first place i obviously am not

    going up and down

    • emmamia
      emmamia mike_1377

      Posted

      Much the same thoughts with me. But like you say...your feelings are rrsl enough for you to be on here in the first place. We all have good and bad days xxxx
  • mike_1377
    mike_1377

    Posted

    so i'm incredibly happy right now... i don't know if i should actually post this i'm just typing as it comes in

    today i went up and down 3 times... more than ever before as far as i can remember

    oh well

  • mike_1377
    mike_1377

    Posted

    it's 3:48am and i can't sleep (again)

    i feel scared right now, been scared the whole week, i've felt lately that i'm close to a complete break down and that scares me. on top of that, theres this friend i really really trust, and i'm anxious to talk to him but i'm afraid he stops talking to me if i look like i'm seeking attention or something like that, it's really hard for me to make friends and i wouldn't like to lose such a good one...

    • emmamia
      emmamia mike_1377

      Posted

      If he is a true friend he will only want to help you. I do not think he won't leave. I reckon you'd feel better if you spoke to him. Explain everything your comfortable sharing and I'm sure it will help you. He will probably be grateful for the trust you have in him. This is what friends are for smile
    • keepgoing
      keepgoing mike_1377

      Posted

      Hi Mike.  Sorry you can't sleep.  Have you been to see a doctor recently as it sounds as though you might need some help with getting on top of your mood swings.  Freinds are great for support but sometimes they can feel overwhelmed becasue they don't understand what we're going through and don't know how to help.  Your doctor will have the means to help you with your symptoms.

      By all means talk to your friend about what you're experiencing but remember to have good times with your friend too otherwise they will only think that you want to talk to them when you're feeling bad.

  • mike_1377
    mike_1377

    Posted

    if thats so then i'll give it a try tomorrow...hopefully everything will go ok, these days i havent been as bad as last week because i keep thinking what it would be like to tell someone about it and its a relief... kinda

    looking forward to see the results tomorrow..

    as for the doctor part i haven't really think about it, but to be honest i have been wondering at what point do i need to do it, because sometimes i think i'm not depressed, maybe i'm just going through a hard time, but hard times seem to be around often or something.. i don't know

    thanks for reading once again, this is... helpful to say the least

  • emmamia
    emmamia mike_1377

    Posted

    It'd all up to you. Doctors would probably be useful just so they can point you in a good direction and hopefully make u feel a bit better. Depression and anxiety can be a not of a confusing road. But I think talking helps. Good kick with your friend tomorrow smile 
  • emmamia
    emmamia mike_1377

    Posted

    Silly predictive text haha

    Bit of a confusing road *

    Good luck *

  • mike_1377
    mike_1377

    Posted

    when i was about to open he said he had to go, and wel.. he kinda had to even though he could have waited a few minutes since i was SO ready. looking at it objectively he has other stuff to do and he shouldn't be late for something so irrelevant, but it still left me thinking he doesnt want to know about it...

    he said he would be back at night but i'm not so sure about telling him anymore... i have this feel it will just make things worse with him and with myself

  • mike_1377
    mike_1377

    Posted

    crying again.. i think i have cried 4 days since sunday... everything pisses me off lately, i can hardly be with myself let alone be with others...
    • emmamia
      emmamia mike_1377

      Posted

      I know that frustration well. Is there anything you enjoy doing? A hobby? Try and make some time for you and do some more of what you love to do. smile
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