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Me and my on and off again boyfriend are currently off again. The relationship was doomed from the start. He's very much older then I am and I've called the police on him three times last time putting him in jail overnight for abuse and vandalism on me and my property.
However when we're not talking and the words that we say to each other stop stinging and I realize that I'll probably be alone forever I get anxiety and my depression lasts for what seems like forever.
I have self diagnosed myself with borderline personality disorder.
And I realize if I don't get help I may be alone forever.
Not to mention I've been trying to conceive and have failed.
Also trying to overcome my bulimia but when I get in this mood it triggers it again (p.s I hate that word trigger)
Anyway it now almost 3am and I'll be tired for my interview tomorrow and I have no one to drive me (mind you I'm almost 29 and have no car)
Damn the more I type the more pathetic I sound.
Signing off ugh
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