Am I a lesbian or is this ocd?
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hi!
so ive been having these constant thoughts of being a lesbian. I do have severe anxiety and take 75 mg of zoloft. On and off ive been having intrusive thoughts about being lesbian and it makes me so anxious but i dont FEEL anxious so it makes me anxious even more that i dont feel nervous. i have been dating a boy for 10 months now and because of these thoughts its really messing me up in this relationship. i look at my friends when i hang out with them and a thought like "i want to kiss them" pops up and it is SO SCARY because ive never had thoughts about any girls like this before. all my life ive always been into men never thought about a girl like that in my life. i do look back at some childhood memories of when i was young and i over thinked it alot because i was a "tom boy"and i was exposed to lesbian porn aswell. I DONT WANT TO BE A LESBIAN BUT MY MIND IS CONVICING ME OTHERWISE I DONT KNOW WHATS REAL OR NOT!
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sarah77370 jj123467
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Hey there,
first of all, there's nothing to be scared about being a lesbian. It's just a sexuality.
Perhaps you are bisexual, or you're going through a time where your sexuality can be questioned. Don't worry too much though, it's nothing bad.
How old are you?
jj123467 sarah77370
Posted
hey there
im 17. and i know theres nothing wrong with it at all but i know that i am a heterosexual. i do suffer with OCD as i have had other intrusive thoughts about a variety of things. i do believe this could be my ocd but in the back of my head theres always the thought that its real.
sarah77370 jj123467
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I don't wanna be the "it's normal for a teenager" person but maybe that's it?
It sucks when you know that you're only into guys, but yeah, disorders mess with reality a lot.
I do hope it is only for a while, so it won't hinder your relationship...
have you tried kissing a girl? perhaps just try it and get it out? see that it's not something for you?
jj123467 sarah77370
Posted
in the past i have kissed my best friends as like a joke and i never felt anything.... these thoughts go on and off and it gets triggered if im watching youtube or anything about coming out
sarah77370 jj123467
Posted
that sounds like a bother, is there any reason why being gay could mean something scary for you?
if you're confident you're straight, though anxiety and ocd ain't logical, it shouldn't be such a striking thing in your every day
jj123467 sarah77370
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well it got triggered orginially by this one girl who said she was straight for awhile then realised she was gay and a thought popped up in my head "well what if thats me?" and since then the thoughts have been on and off. the thoughts arent there often, but when they are its debilitating
MK2 sarah77370
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That's not how OCD works. OCD disregards logic. OCD turns the taboo into a reality and makes you feel as though you're teetering on the line of insanity. Even if OP happened to have hidden homosexual feelings, which I doubt, her thought pattern is not healthy and needs to be treated before the next obsession begins.
jj123467 MK2
Posted
Exactly. This is just plain ocd right?
sarah77370 jj123467
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Every mental disorder disregards logic, but is often sprung from something deep down.
But yes, of course this should be treated.
And yes, this is probably OCD playing tricks with you; did you talk to.your doctor about it?
Yomamamama123 jj123467
Posted
sounds more like curiosity to me than anxiety! It appears that you have these thoughts and you have somehow attach them to being negative and its triggering your anxiety. I would suggest talking with a guidance counselor to help you navigate thru your feelings
jj123467 Yomamamama123
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im not so sure if its curiosity bexause a girl has never turned me on and i was diagnosed with OCD. ive had other intrusive thoughts about different things that i believed were true and j thjnk thats one of those