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I really hope someone can help me because I feel like I'm losing my mind. And I kindly ask that no one gives me a lecture, I know what iv done is totally irresponsible and I'm an absolute idiot.
Four days ago I went out with a friend for some drinks. I ended up horribly drunk, to the point where I woke up and had no recollection of the last few hours of the evening. After I'd spoken to her I managed to piece together that she had left me in the club after an argument. Luckily for me she had bumped into another of our friends on her way home, they went for drinks then this other friend came looking for me. He found me asleep in the club and put me in a taxi home. I can't believe how irresponsible I was and what a stupid situation I put myself in. I completely hate myself.
The next day, I understandably felt horrendous, but I went to work as normal and just prayed for the end of the day. That night I had a small nose bleed.
The next day I still felt ropey, then as I was getting ready for work I got the worst nosebleed of my life. It was gushing everywhere (probably not helped by the fact that i was in a complete state of panic).
It is now four days on and my head is still swimming, I have a constant headache, dizziness and I feel like I'm going to vomit. I haven't even got dressed all weekend.
I should probably mention that iv suffered with anxiety for the last ten years or so. I take 150mg of sertraline daily because I have horrific health anxiety. And now I'm absolutely convinced that I'm dying. I don't know what to do with myself, I feel slightly suicidal.
Someone please help.
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