Am I heading for a relapse?

I was sad to read your post.

No, you are NOT going to relapse.  If your boyfriend cant deal with your depression, then he's not worth hanging on to.  I know its going to be very hard for you but trust me, your health and state of mind is far more important.  And he should realise that too.  

I have only been on Cit since last Wednesday, so Im not really in a position to say if it has worked for me or not yet, but the thing Im worrying about most, is putting on weight, as Ive gone to alot of effort over last couple years to lose eleven stone, and Id cry if I started to gain weight again.

Im going through a separation atm, and that in itself is very very hard.  So I can totally understand how you must be feeling.  Men have a bad habit of playing with our heads, and this is so they can gain control over you.  You donot want to leIt your boyfriend do this to you.

Hang on in there my lovely.  Dont let him get the better of you.  Especially when he is drunk, as thats the time men tend to say things that they didnt mean to say.  And they play with your emotions.  My god, Im feeling emotions I didnt even know I had!!!  I thought I was doing ok but deep down I know Im not. But then this is not about me, its about you.

Maybe it would help if you had a break.  Only a suggestion, but sometimes it helps and gives you time to think do you really want to carry on seeing this man or are you doing ok without him.

Its not fair of him to bring up your depression though.  We cant help the way we feel.

I do think though, my lovely, you need time to think.  And if I were you, I would definitely consider not seeing him for a while, and see how you get on.  

I hope it all works out for you.  Please feel free to message me at any time.  I dont always have answers, but I listen.  And sometimes, as Ive found out, it does help to talk to people that you dont know, as then you are not judged.

Let me know how you are. XXX   

Depression is an illness, like any other illness people have to endure, and often is takes a while to recover, so all we want is people's understanding and patience.

Sounds like the alcohol played a part in it, and when we argue we do say things we often don't mean.

You'll probably feel knocked backwards for few days, but carry on as you were and you'll start feeling ok again.

Wishing you the best x

He's been going thru a rough time is well as his mother was diagnosed with cancer about a month ago...

We're from Dublin Ireland and we emigrated to Canada in 2013 so it's hard for us to get home..

We've been together for almost 8years now..

When I was first diagnosed with anxiety he did help me an he did support me a bit and he thinks because I take a tablet I'll automatically be better...

Going on a break probably would be the best option but I'd have no where to go as I've no family here an we have the same friends so that would be a bit awkward

Thanks so much for the advise tho