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am I the only one who feels like this .. im either going mad or i feel like im dying !!

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christine60192
christine60192

My doctor tells me I have anxiety , I have suffered in silence for about 9 years now .. well up until going to my doctors about it a few months ago because something has got to give .. I got referred for cbt and had 3 sessions so far , he ain'ttold me nothing I ddon't already know has anyone elsehad this treatment and has it worked for them ? I feel like im fighting a loosing battle. I've tried many self help techniques and nothing seems to help .. I have anxiety every day and it is a living hell. I have that many symptoms here are a few to see if they sound familiar to others ... I get dizzy, lightheaded , pressure headaches - feel like my head is about to explode , racing thoughts , feel like im going to pass out or have some sort of fit , I sway from side to side , pull my hair , fidget all the time , I tense my muscles all the time , check my pulse constantly , breathing feels difficult , feel tingling in my arms and legs ,, when I sit still sometimes I feel like im going to fall over a bit like when your falling asleep and feel like your falling off a cliff ... The list is endless !!! I just feel like I'm goino mad and I'm feeling really low about it .. i hate leaving the house I've stopped socialising avoid eating out or going to supermarket i just feel like what is the point in life when you don't enjoy being yourself .. my children are the only reason I'm still here they are my world  

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  • jmcg2014
    jmcg2014 christine60192

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    yes , all very familiar - its a terrifying thing to go through.  Therapy helps me, i stay away from meds. For me the root cause has to be adressed, and meds just cant do that
  • mark69568
    mark69568 christine60192

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    Raving thoughts,yes cristine. I t is disheartening to hear nothing works for you to make you feel better,this is my concern too. I calm in the evening with a drink.  I know the cause for my anxiety,do you know yours? I feel this is going to be half the battle to feel better and hope you will also feel better very soon x
    • mark69568
      mark69568

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      racing thoughts ,i meant to type: )
  • christine60192
    christine60192

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    Sorry to hear that your both have to put up with these feelings too but in a selfish way it's a comfort too sad I just have so many symptoms sometimes it's very hard to stand it  .. I've stayed away from med's as I don't want to end up reliant on something to help me feel better .. I have no idea as to why I have anxiety .. I have anxiety when I have nothing to be anxious about .. It feels like it's consuming my whole life .. its all I ever think about even though I hate it and don't want to .. Do you both have problems with going outside and socialising ? 
    • dinky_dee
      dinky_dee christine60192

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      Hi I've noraml to want to isolate youself when suffering with anxiety. It's al part if the affliction. So many excellent resources out there to help..yotube, self help books etc. I find exercise helps me mainly Pilates and yoga..they both hep to calm the nrevous system & the breathing exercises (if you can do them, I find myself holding my breath alot) should help. What have you tried so far? I had the same issue with CBT, found some things helpful but found it a bit wishy washy for me. Sometimes a bit of psychoanalyitical therapy helps...
    • dinky_dee
      dinky_dee

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      *it's normal...that was meant to be..this site needs an edit button!
    • christine60192
      christine60192 dinky_dee

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      I've only tried cbt so far.. Most of the stuff I've tried by myself .. exercise does help me too if im eating well and exercising i generally wake up in a positive frame of mind which can sometimes help ... I've never heard of psychoanalytical therapy .. cbt is a little helpful but he generally goes over what i already know  
    • dinky_dee
      dinky_dee christine60192

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      It seesm to point out the obvious doesn't it, CBT. I was recommended an NLP practitioner but she proved to be unprofessional. Was telling me all her personal stuff & told me I've got nothing to offfer someone in a relationship...NICE! I'm tryin to find one that I found before who does hypnotherapy. I'm cautious about that though because it can leave you stuck sometimes. A really good book that i've just read is "shoot the damn dog" - Sally Brampton its a memoir of despression. Ive got " the noon day Demon" too going to start that one soon. I wish I'd known about all these therapies years ago, I think my life could have been different if I had. 
    • christine60192
      christine60192 dinky_dee

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      I tried hypnotherapy a few years ago id forgotten all about that to be honest ! I only did two sessions as money was tight and it was 80 a go .. she said I'd prob only need 2-3 sessions to be fair that last session could of made a huge difference but at the time I could not afford it .. Think I may have a trip to the library later see if I can pick that book up .. thanks smile Where abouts in the country do you live if you don't mind me asking ? yeah me too I've never really spoken about it before up until really recently it's nice to be able to talk to people who go through this too and really know how you feel 
  • mark69568
    mark69568 christine60192

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    No, I go to work and I seem happy to nearly everyone ,except my wife knows I wanted to just dissapear and let her have a good life;I really upset her so now I dont tell anyone. I feel...worthless is a good word and feel I dont deserve to live here with her. I need a job with less stress and I cant do anything except my skillbase so I feel trapped.  That's why I know what stresses me, but it makes all smaller things seem hard to cope with,things at home,even people I love ,visiting. I hide it all but it is bad to hide and bottle it.

    You can find the root of your worries, there must be a cause..

    • carole28488
      carole28488 mark69568

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      Take it from someone who knows all these feelings, only too well...I was born with anxiety and depressive disorder...I am 66 yrs. old now, so I kind of have that, I don't care attitude...If I die today, I can't say I died young...lol.....all of these feelings ARE NOT FACTS...the more you dwell on them, the more they consume you....your body and mind work together, and when you are scared and feeling worthless, your immune system is run down and you can catch any disease passing by...Please try to remember that what you have IS NOT DANGEROUS, and WILL NOT LAST FOREVER....anyone wanting to speak to this old lady (ME), who has been through just about everything, including eating disorders and suicide in my family, please send me messages...I would love to help...Life is too short to dwell on the bad things...

       

    • christine60192
      christine60192 mark69568

      Posted

      Hi Mark smile

      Im sorry to hear that you have no support behind you ... i dont understand how this upsets your wife so much as your the one who is dealing with the anxiety ... also no one is worthless ... you and your wife made vows when you got married so you she loves you just as much as you love her .. just cos you have anxiety it dont mean you or your wife cannot have a good life .. you will get better  .. you should work at it together as a team x

    • christine60192
      christine60192 carole28488

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      Hi Carole

      Im glad you have now found a place in your mind where your not worrying about things smile can i ask have you had therapy or taken medication to help you overcome anxiety or depression ?

       

    • carole28488
      carole28488 christine60192

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      Christine:  Yes, I certainly have had to have medication.  I have a chemical imbalance in my brain, and no amount of therapy will make it better.  Don't be ashamed to take meds for what ails you...it is just like any other disease like diabetes, etc...Hope you can get to that point, too...
  • simon24216
    simon24216 christine60192

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    Hi Christine 

    I have had all of your symptoms and more this anxiety is bloody awfull!!! However there is a light at the end of the tunnel! Let me tell you everyone that posts on this site will tell something different what works for one will not work for the other! Thats anxiety! I've battled anxiety for 15 years thinking I could defeat this horid condition on my own! They first put me on 20 mg of citilapram and after 2 months or so my syptoms went and was totally symptomless! Time went by and I didn't want to be on the meds so came of them! Anxiety came back! So back on meds this went on for 15 years and the only time I was symptom free was when I was on the meds so this year I decided to stay on the meds for life and why wouldn't i?! No syptoms feel bloody great! All I'm saying don't completely say no to meds as for some people they are a life saver! I fully respect the guy on here saying no to meds but he sounds like he's still having problems with anxiety and that I don't understand?! Who cares about finding the cause of anxiety if you can feel normal and syptoms free then I say bloody good!!! Got ged up with battling anxiety! 

    Everyone is different and do what you need to do to get better/normal after all it's not to much to ask to feel normal!! You take care and remember you can beat this by finding what works for you!!😌

    • jean71620
      jean71620 simon24216

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      @I agree with you Simon, my duaghter was so anit medication, she suffered on her own for weeks and weeks and was really ill. A & E visits,s doctors visits. She is now on medicationand thankfully recovering. I agree with you if you have to take them for the rest of your life so what.If you had a heart condition, asthma, diabetes or some other illness that you would need to take lifetime mediactionfor then you would. Makes no difference that it is in your head. Good luch and stay well.
    • christine60192
      christine60192 simon24216

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      hi simon

      great news to hear you are anxiety free and good for you ... think im just in a vicious circle of being too scared to take the tablets in the first place !!! Ill carry on with my CBT and see how i progress if not maybe its time to be brave and get back to the doctors and try some tabs ... thanks for your support it means alot smile x

       

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