An Inside Job
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Over the course of 16 months (which has been my sentence so far)
ive learned that this Per/Meno condition or whatever you want to call it..isnt a quick fix.
I feel as though i have reached the crossroad of my life, and this is natures way of showing me that i need to go inward.
ya i know it all sounds flaky but its the truth.
Im forced to look at myself, past present future, and come to terms with everything. I know that there are a lot of unresolved things that have taken place long ago, things i didnt even understand or process that could have had an impact on my psyche to this date.
So for me to continue in a healthy manner I need to do the work on the inside.
This might also explain how many women dont feel the pain of menopause because they are in a good place in their minds and hearts.
Also it shows as many women have very hard illnesses and fates, and yet accept them with all of the grace in the world, through the pain through everything. They are not affected by it.
So for me..i think this is an inside job..
and maybe if i can figure some things out about myself, i will be more accepting of what is happening to me now. I dont know if it will pull me out of depression, but I do know that our minds are ever powerful, even more powerful than the hormones, and the two are at battle at the moment.
didnt mean to go on the hippie track but i think this has something to do with it all..
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Guest mauiblue
Posted
Aside from humans...killer and pilot whales experience menopause...wonder what their secret is? 🤗
lori93950 Guest
Posted
How interesting Lou ... I never knew that . No wonder men say some women look like a whale when they put a few pounds on 🤣
juanita93228 Guest
Posted
Very interesting fact. Perhaps kill is the the secret. Kill and then pilot yourself on outta there 😂😂😂😂
mauiblue Guest
Posted
Really??
WOWWzy
i did not know that, yes we need to figure their secret out, if they have one, but then again maybe they are on their whale version of 'Patient'...
lol
Guest juanita93228
Posted
Yes! I like it! 😂
Guest lori93950
Posted
😂
Guest mauiblue
Posted
I’m not sure, but I do know that killer whales can take out a shark if need be. Even in menopause, not to be messed with! Patient and strong. 🤔😊
audra86673 mauiblue
Posted
I couldn't agree more! As much as I have hated my peri sentence ( 13 months in) it has forced me to break down and be raw and rebuild myself. I now see more clearly what's important and what's not. I'm much calmer, patient and understanding now than ever before in my life. A lesson I now know I desperately needed to learn. It has forced me to... for lack of a better description.. go flat and hollow and stop and look around and realize what I need and what others crave from me. I think we start out who we are meant to be and as the years go on and life happens, we shift and adjust and sometimes don't remain true to authentic self. This peri mess has allowed me to hit the wall running at top speed. It planted me flat on my back ( literally) and through what I will call some tourtuois, desperate days/ weeks/months it's like the authentic me has crawled out from behind the shadow of who I had become. I'm more "me" now than I have been in a very, very long time. The true me that I had lost touch with many many moons ago. I'm glad im finding my way back... I have missed the contentment of being my authentic self. So this peri meno journey is rough but I'm actually very grateful I'm traveling this rough road. In the end, it will be well worth it.
mauiblue audra86673
Posted
thank you
xoxox
mauiblue
Posted
ii meant to write :0
katyD211 audra86673
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juanita93228 mauiblue
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mauiblue juanita93228
Posted
hug back at you
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Finny2018 mauiblue
Posted
Maui,
This is a powerful and beautiful post.
Because of my lack of energy, lack of zest - all of it - I am forced to be with myself a lot of the time these days. Before this all hit - I was on the go! Full of life! So with this comes a LOT of reflecting.
Looking at my character. Looking at my weaknesses. Seeing just how fragile I am. I read another post here that said she finally felt free to accept that during this time she was no longer strong but instead weak, scared, dependent, tired, fragile, etc. That is a hard place to accept - but I am finding that in my weakness is when I can let others "give" to me in ways I hadn't been able to before.
I didn't know Meno could be so hard - but after much research - I am among the approx. 30% that is having it hard. My mom had a few hot flashes and then done at 50.
Thanks again for opening up and sharing such a beautiful post. Hugs.
mauiblue Finny2018
Posted
Today is my birthday
and i feel so low. I am doing my best to get out of the darkness but to no avail.
I think i will put out a post saying happy birthday to me so that i will receive a happy bday..my kids didnt remember my bday and there isnt anyone else in our lives. sounds pathetic but its all good.
Yes we are forced to metamorphis and look inward. I think that now its why i have the depression because is forcing me to figure out whats real, and leave behind what isnt.
I also know the physical aspect of this is really overwhelming me. No appetite, adrenaline..even mere thoughts can change my chemistry literally. I can think of something negative and ive distorted what is.. with very few coping skills now.
i will keep plugging along until i crash i guess. I have no choice in the matter.
thank you again Finny for such a nice comment, it helped me today.
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juanita93228 mauiblue
Posted
I wish I could make it all better. Just know you have mine and all the other ladies support. 🤗???