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rachel76740
rachel76740

Last night my husband had gone up his sisters with our kids to mend her car .I was here on my own .I went to get a fag out the packet and it was empty.with that I realised my walker was in the car so I was a prisoner in my own home I rang him only to hear his fone ringing upstairs .by this time I was getting really upset and feeling trapped .see I can walk about 100 yard then my legs give Way or shake really bad.the walker is great BUT I find where I'm gripping it for dear life make my arms go so weak I can't use them.so in hindsight even if my walker was at home I couldn't do 1/2 mile walk to shop.i tried foxing his sister her fone was off .so in desperation for a fag BAD I NO I fone my son who lives 5 miles away he came straight away but wen he got here I was so nasty like it was his fault wen really I was angry with my self as it suddenly dawned on me that I'm dependent on others to help me .He left and didn't mutter a word other than have a fag and calm down chucked the fags at me and promptly left .I have just seen my son and gave him a big big hug and apologie. Has end else suddenly relieved there are times wen you feel hopeless and take it out on the wrong person

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  • hazel70459
    hazel70459 rachel76740

    Posted

    Hello , I used to smoke years ago so I get how it feels when you havent got any. I havent yet took it out on any one, my husband may say different ha ha. I am sure your son understands. It is frustrating. I have recently joined this site and already I feel like for the first time I am believed it makes such a difference knowing your not alone. so if you feel like letting off steam I will be here swear rant whatever you feel, because I get it. people on here are helping me more than they know. so on a scale of one to ten how p***ed off are you today smile. 
  • wendy22970
    wendy22970 rachel76740

    Posted

    All the time Rachel - it happens a lot, my poor husband is one in a million, as he just keeps out of the way until I feel better.
    • rachel76740
      rachel76740 wendy22970

      Posted

      He's my husband in sickness and health if I'm not mistaking we care for each other .I was so offended as it made me feel more of a burden
    • tiswas24537
      tiswas24537 rachel76740

      Posted

      i feel a like a burden to ,isent it just hell .

      i wish there was something i could do to get fibro out there and talked about .

    • wendy22970
      wendy22970 rachel76740

      Posted

      You shouldn't ever feel like a burden - you didn't choose to suffer Fibro, it's not your fault!!!
  • rachel76740
    rachel76740

    Posted

    Well I've just had the occupation al therpest out who kept refusing to my hubby as my carer that didn't help he's my husband and if this was him I'd be in helping him .so on a scale of 1 to 10 7 is how I'm feeling .but reassuring I'm not alone
    • wendy22970
      wendy22970 rachel76740

      Posted

      If it offends you Rachel - then TELL her - you need to make it clear that he is your husband first and carer second!!
    • christine26761
      christine26761 wendy22970

      Posted

      Yes TELL HER let the powers that be, know, your husband is your power that be....:-) Au
  • hazel70459
    hazel70459 rachel76740

    Posted

    well your right he is your husband , My husband isnt my carer he may help me out and so he should as i would do the same for him. Bet you felt invisable with that comment, you stop getting treated like an equal person but somebody thats got a great big label on them. Does your husband feel like he is your carer?. I bet he is happy that he can help his wonderful wife, the woman he loves and cares for. OOH la la getting all romantic , well its nearly valentines day. My husband asked me if I wanted a gift or for him to do some tiling , well i asked for the tiling ha ha , thats love . Take care and I hope you start to feel better and both of you enjoy a romantic evening.  
    • rachel76740
      rachel76740 hazel70459

      Posted

      Well its my bay tomorrow and I never celebrate that a happy birthday is nice and all I want is for all my love ones to be happy and that's me happy.no gifts and my hubby is a romantic all yr so valentine day I don't need cus I get it all yr round sounds soppy in but it's true lol
    • christine26761
      christine26761 rachel76740

      Posted

      Happy birthday Rachel, do hope you have an awesome painless day and get spoilt rotten too....enjoy your day....:-) Australia
  • hazel70459
    hazel70459 rachel76740

    Posted

    Ahhh thats not soppy its nice. You have a great birthday tommorow. And hopefully a pain free one. smile
  • christine26761
    christine26761 rachel76740

    Posted

    Absolutely,I had to up driving too....grieving process almost..but my husband is a real gem..if he goes anywhere without me he always (like a fuss pot) runs around and makes sure I have everything at my fingertips...then says " now, is there anything I've forgot ...such a carer....but I'm totally dependent on him...:-) Australia
    • tiswas24537
      tiswas24537 christine26761

      Posted

      you have a gem there hun ,your a very lucky lady to find such a man 

      i am sure you prize him highly .may you have many long years together and hopefully with a reduction in symptoms to . many blessings .

       

    • christine26761
      christine26761 tiswas24537

      Posted

      Awwww thankyou, I read it out to him....he said. YEP, that's me...that's lovely of you to write that,..really appreciate it..,and yes he is a gem and he is highly prize alright,,..:-) xx
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