Anticipatory anxiety and panic attacks
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Hi everyone, I've been working hard to deal with another setback mixed in with bereavement stuff. My general anxiety is under control so I'm not struggling at work. However I'm getting frustrated with memory and association where my panic attacks are concerned. I'm pretty agoraphobic but I m usually fine in my local area and getting to work its only a 15 min walk. Going to work is fine, though I'm finding going home especially in the dark a daily battle of anticipatory anxiety before I leave and usually panic attack on the walk home. Very bad tonight. I try and not rush, call anyone, doing the breathing, etc but I can't shift the sensitization to the memory and association of panicking on the way home, that causes the panic to perpetuate. It's so crazy that we do this to ourselves and buy into the memory and association that drives the anxiety. Anyone else feel similarly and struggle with this sort of situation? Maybe that's a silly question , but I guess I just need some reassurance. Thank you. Francesca x
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Thanks again.
robert45983 francesca45319
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I just wanted to contribute because I too lost my Dad recently. A few months earlier I lost my fiancee (to breakup) and a few months before that I lost my Grandpa and my dream job. I have had similar issues in dealing with the aftermath. It's a tough go. I am an artist and writer and I have tendancy to reflect a lot to begin with, so you can imagine the bad habits this creates when all you reflect on is the negative from the not so distant past. I am also a stubborn dude who doesn't feel comfortable getting help. About the worse panic attack I had was when I took off to Paris after my Dad died, to isolate myself and write in the cafes (awesome idea that turned into a challenge). it was my birthday, halway through my trip, and my ex and a bunch of my friends decided to get in touch with me while I was alone in Paris and ask about my Dad and so on. Absolutely helpless. I remember the tube (subway) was horrific. and even the sites along the Seine were horid and lonely and frightening. But, somehow, I pulled through. I find the meditation helps. I use limited meds -- and I even quite smoking pot to help it and limit alcohol. I focus on future goals and focus on breathing. When I get real bad I just try to find someone I can relate to. It's strange how it creeps up. Anyway, I just felt close to your story and wanted to wish you the best. You'll do great! Everyone in these discussions really amaze me with their courage through the battle. Once you get a taste of panic and anxiety, or depression, you realise it's a mountain to climb. I guess we better just keep going. Chin up!Â
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