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Hello people,
I'm sorry to start this off with such a morbid subject, but I have been struggling with this for a good part of 15 years and i'm only 21!
My earliest memory of this when I was younger (preteen about 6 years old) I would cry at night because I was scared I may not wake up in the morning and I have carried this with me all the way into adulthood. Death is on my mind from the moment I wake up in the morning to the moment I go to sleep its my first and last thought every day, and I don't feel normal for it at all but what would I even say if I was to talk to my GP? Would they laugh and tell me to stop being so pathetic? I have spoken with my mum and my partner about my worries and they are well aware of my fears but I have no control over this one they tell me its just one of them things that happens to everyone, there are many aspects of death I fear.. being alone when I pass, not saying goodbye or telling people that are important to me just how much they mean to me. I have never had a death in my family so haven't had to greive for someone. I was just wondering if anyone else has the same issue or am I alone on this one as I certainly feel it! If anyone else does feel the same way do you have any adivse?
Thank you!
Kirsty xx
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sylvia8311 kirstyleigh1994
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kelly13282 kirstyleigh1994
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i dont fear death but have lots of fears and i drive myself crazy about it. I feared 6 months ago after getting a new boss that i was gonna loose my job, i made myself ill about it and i am now facing being dismissed via capability grounds as i have been on long term sick. When i was told this could be the case, i had a word with my logic and i started to feel a relief that it was my thoughts that was making me this way and whats the worst thing to come out of the situation. Your Situation must be really upsetting for you as death is a very final thing and in your mind all the time that something bad is going to happen must also be really upsetting for you. I am no kind of doctor or therapist, but i would probably confront your fears head on. Go to your GP they wont laugh at all, get them to give u a once over medical to reassure you that your health is good, book a therapist for CBT, they are really helpful and teach how to train your brain so when you have these thoughts or feelings you know how to deal with them..Lastly i would say, go tell all of your freinds and family how much you love and care for them, they dont have to know your thoughts about death, but this will put your mind at rest that you have told them and if anything was to happen you have told them. Anxiety is awful, but the more you fight it the worse it becomes and then you no longer have anxiety it has you. confront everything head on and dont let it win.
good luck xx
mrs.wife24531 kirstyleigh1994
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I thought i was the only one it's weird. My husband tells me everything's fine you're gonna be ok, but then I say then why am I fearing it all of a sudden which scares me. I rather fear sidewalks then this it feels like my life has been tooken over.
natashaloo kirstyleigh1994
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kirstyleigh1994 natashaloo
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I think I will get my self to the doctors its just a little bit humiliating i'm so independant and feel so useless having this issue as I just can not budge it! It rules my life, i'm starting to get on my boyfriends nerves asking if he's scared of dying I think I just want to hear someone else is so I feel half normal and not sch a freak! I'm the same with thinking I have medical issues I go to the doctors for things most people wouldnt bother with I guess I just don't want to be fed drugs and just spend my life being high on medication!
Thoughts are with you too and I send my condolences to you & family xxxx
jojomary kirstyleigh1994
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kirstyleigh1994 jojomary
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Thank you for replying to my post, i'm glad to know im not alone btu sad to hear that other people are having the same issue.
I think im anxiety comes from not wanting to waste my life and getting to the end and thinking well i could of done this or i shouldnt of done this and it being too late but i'm scared i'll get to the end and think well i've wasted my life thinking about this time of my life 'the end' and not dont what i wanted! I just can not shift this feeling its ruling my life.
xx
lisalisa67 kirstyleigh1994
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jojomary kirstyleigh1994
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jojomary kirstyleigh1994
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gwen1953 kirstyleigh1994
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I'm 62 and I can tell you with all honesty that a day doesn't go by that I don't think about dying, especially as my partner is only 49 (We have been together for 20 years). I also think about how I'm going to die too, especially as my parents died when I was 18 and 21 respectively and watching them die due to cancer was not nice.
You have to convince yourself that you are lucky to be alive as I do. I am now older than my parents where when they died but when I actually got to their age I was convinced I was going to die at that age too.
You need to get some help. Try the Samaritans who are alway ready to listen.
Remember you have a life to live and enjoy. You must try to push those dark morbid thoughts to the back of your mind and enjoy life as I do.
kirstyleigh1994 gwen1953
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I think what sets me off is when I realise my parents aren't going to live forever and that one day I will have to greive for them, I wish I could prepare myself for that time but I guess there is no real way of knowing how I may react to that kind of news. It just really scares me!
Thank you for the advise it is greatly appreciated! xx
mrs.wife24531 kirstyleigh1994
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linda21680 kirstyleigh1994
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I have a son who thinks he is going to die young and is causing him axiety everyday it is litterally spoiling his life, He is fit and healthy other than this as he plays sports. The thing is this, I need to help him get over this and I need help with technics to make him well again. Any suggestions that helped you overcome this feeling of death would be much appreciated thank you, P.s. He has seen the doctor and all is well.
lisalisa67 kirstyleigh1994
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