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Hi is there anyone out there who has suffered repeated bouts of anxiety and depression...I really need to hear good things and the thought of going back on the pill merry go round is frightening me sooo much
Any support would be gratefully appreciated
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Hi john. Welcome to the carousel. Its a tricky one as ive been the same before in the past frightened to go back on or change and add other meds to help this dreaded anxiety & depression. I took the plunge in october & its paying off thankfully. Its been hard granted but ur not alone xx let us know wat u decide,. I know its worse as u lose faith when its repeated over and over. Good luck ;0) xx
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Hi Amanda
Thank you for your kind reply and sharing your struggle and kind thoughts...I am desperately awaiting a message review to make changes
I am still on Mirtazipine but it's doing nothing...I was on Effexor with Mirtazipine and was fine for years, however I I stopped taking Effexor last year and have sunk back into that hole x
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Ohh bless u. Its horrid isnt it. A headache and neurology specialist tweeked my prozac as he thought after 20+ Yrs of migraine they wud lower that for a while, all experimental but had to rule it out as a major factor. Turns out it didnt change my migraine in any way & i plummetted in oct due to a bereavement @ the same tym. So now my optimum dose has slowly increased after a c**p few mths im improving with the help of occasional diazepam which in the uk are like getting blood from a stone from the drs due to ppl who abuse them. Then when in severe crisis where do we turn.?? Nonetheless im doing better. Maybe yr dr could try a change altogether or adding another? Scary i know as u dont know how your body will cope but if motivated try the gym in the mean tym. It releases the bodies natural feel good chemicals and hormones. I hate the gym so i get it if its not for u. Kp us posted xx ;0)
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Sad to hear of your bereavement and struggle with Prozac...I have gone through many years of remission with Soroxat and came off that in 2010 then crashed and could not find anything to help...Was on diazepam too at the time.
Anyway after a long time I eventually got back on track with Effexor and Mirtazipine...I again felt so good that I tapered off Effexor and again I've crashed and and burning
I am back on a very low dose of Diazipam as GP's in the U.K. don't like to prescribe them...I am still waiting for a proper med review fingers crossed
Thank you for your replies it's sooo helpful sharing these things with others who have experienced the same
Thank you Amanda x
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Youre v welcome joh. Sorry for delayed reply. Mirtazipine never suited me @ all and the fluoxetine (prozac)has worked well as long as i dont lower the dose it seems. It could be tho that the grief played a part in it not working @ lower dose but was too unwell to hold out & see!!!! Glad its helping talking on here. It certainly did for me without question. Hope ur soon sorted on the correct meds for u & smiling again like a cheshire cat ';0)) xxx
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Yes Amanda just having someone to chat to is a god send right now and for your replies I am truly thankful...I'm scared of trying more meds, but know I have to do that to get better
My GP increased my Mirt to 45g on Friday and gave me 6mg of diazipam per day (UK) as you know very afraid of prescribing benzos...I have withdrew from benzodiazepines before with success, so not concerned about that
It's good to have contact with a fellow suffer at this difficult time Thank You x
Prozac didn't agree with me sent me Anxiety in the stratosphere...You are a light
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Aw god bless u. Im just someone like u who hates to see someone suffer this awful disease. And yes well aware of the tight benzo restrictions & i also have no prob coming off them u just do it properly as prescribed & weaned maybe not the same for everyone i cant spk for all. But i like u had no issue with that. Oh isnt it odd how were all different. Id be dead without prozac sori to put it so bluntly.. and for u it was bad.. hope the dose increase fri kicks in soon hun xx ;0)
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I suspect that because I was on such a high dose of Effexor with Mirtazipine, I may need a combo to give that huge serotonin boost...Seeing my GP on Friday and a Pdoc next week, so can discuss this option
However I feel they will want to give the increased Mirtazipine a coupe weeks before taking that step...It sucks waiting for recovery
Like you I can slowly wean off meds like diazipam
Glad you have contacted and replied to me x
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A huge thank you and I hope you don't mind me messing you, it's just sooo good to share this with people who have been here too
I will discuss my options with both my GP and Pdoc and fingers crossed can begin to get some relief soon
Are you in the UK too, I noticed the ref to GP's ??? X
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Hoping you have a good gp & or psych as its taken 13 yrs for me too find a dismond in the ocean so to speak. Absolutely wonderful to finally feel a gp really cares not just about yr physical health.. maybe ive just been unlucky. But if all drs were as nice it would be amazing. Shes a definate credit to her profession. Xx
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I know it's so difficult finding doctors who truly care about mental illness and patients who are in distress...Sounds like you have eventually got a good un
I have a crisis team visiting me in the next half hour to map out a plan of action...Do you mind if I message you later today ????
Your kind thoughts are sooo helpful Thank You x
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Of course u can. Good luck & no problem. Spk later xx
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Hi Amanda
Thanks for all your kind words and support today, it's very much appreciated and kind of you to take time...I have to wait a week to see a pdoc, although I see a GP on Friday, but they aren't really interested in these kind of matters
The mental health team came out to me today and increased diazipam to 15mg per day if required and added sleeping meds, but I don't fancy taking sleeping meds...Are you still just on Prozac ??? X
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Sounds like you've been through the mill Amanda and lived to tell the tail...I know what that feels like and how meds also saved my life
They can be your best friend and your worst enemy, how cruel eh !!!
I will only take the sleeping meds if Mirtazipine stop helping with that...I have always found Mirtazipine make me sleep, albeit not as well at the moment
I know what it's like to look forward to sleep, just to get a rest from the punishing anxiety x
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U too john. Xx glad yr still seeking help. Xx yes we need sleep to escape it definately xx & yes see how you go with the mirtaz first xx
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I hope today is a day nearer my recovery and I remain positive about that, inspite of all these horrideous emotions and anxieties
Have you tried any other meds besides Prozac that helped...Its always good to hear others trials and experiences? X
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Mornin, i hope so for ya2. X with me dothiepin worked in the past too, which stabilised my mood quite well it was only wen having my daughter i had to come off them. Mirtazipine didnt work for me @ all & prozac ive been on almost 14 yrs now also due to my fear of changing something that works. It onlt fails if a big life event, stressor or the drs tweek dosage that i have problems. Xxx
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You must stick with what's keeping you stable and I have learnt that the hard way...Worse thing is I came off meds and therefore put myself in this situation, so I am punishing myself about doing that yet again
My family has a long history of mental health problems...My mum attempted suicide in 79 and was on medication for the whole of her life...My dad hung himself in 93 and I found him. So I feel this is genetic and know that the right medication can dig you out of this hole.
I have the crisis team visiting me daily at the moment, as they feel I am a high risk right now
Thank you Amanda for being there to share my difficulties, it's sooo helpful Jx
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Wow we have both been thru the mill. Sorry for all your loss too. Xx well ur like a lot of ppl with mental illness they just want to be independent of meds do so well & think they r a bit better & try without. Dont beat yourself up .. just use that energy on getting well. Ive been there with the crisis team coming out too in the past. Hope they are are an ok bunch. Yr also helping me so nothing to thank me for. Being able to help on this forum like i needed just mths ago is all i can do. Paying it forward ?. Xx
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The crisis team are very supportive and offer whatever they can...Still waiting to see a pdoc and have to see my GP tomorrow...I was thinking of asking the GP if he would add another AD to my Mirtazipine what do you think ???
I had a terrible evening yesterday with anxiety just would not let up at all...Thanks for your replies JX
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Oh thats not gud to hear.. u could do yes he may add one or change?? Depends on the dr. He will prob decide based on yr answers ie are there any triggers etc / & are ur anxiety triggered by certain things. Glad the crisis team are ok with u. Xx
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Hi Amanda
The crisis team are due again in 15 mins...So gonna ask there advise on requesting my GP adds an AD to my Mirtazipine...Don't want to come off Mirtazipine as it's keeping me afloat I feel and without it I would go under for sure
You are a kind soul thank you JX
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Had a good meet with the crisis team and mangers to get to see my GP at 15:45 today, so hoping he will prescribe and SSRI to add to the Mirtazipine
Take care of yourself JX
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Oh grt x hope u get something sorted this afternoon. & thankyou me too its agony xx take care good luck @ the drs j xx
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Hope your migraine is easing and your feeling a little better x...My GP was happy to prescribe Sertraline to see if that will work with the Mirtazipine...I have ready very good things about that combo
Will start very low dose tomorrow am JX
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Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better Amanda x
I am scared starting new meds as you never know how your body and brain are going to react to new drugs !!!
I will start low at 25mg tomorrow morning and see how I go, fingers. Crossed I will get on with em
The GP was unwilling to prescribe SNRI's or Diazipam until he has had instructions from my crisis team. I rang them and they said don't worry they wikl sort that out
So wait and see what tomorrow brings eh !!!
Take care JX
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Morning Amanda
How's your migraine today ? I am gonna see how I go this weekend before starting the sertraline...Reason being I had a window yesterday evening that lasted for hours and don't know if that is the increased Mirtazipine trying to kick in
Think that's the best approach, as I may be lucky with more Mirtazipine
Thank you JX
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Hi john. Its still there but not as painful. I see wat u mean about the tablets, theyve tried to give me 2 ad's together b4 but my fear has stopped me in the past. Just c how u go over the weekend then hun. Xx let me know how you get on. Xx
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Thanks Amanda
It can't do any harm waiting a few more days before starting up a new AD and see if that window keeps appearing Eh
Thanks for being there it's sooo helpful right now...I have a sister who is very close to me, but it's far better chatting with people who've been here and understand the fears associated with new medication
Ta JX
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Aw its honestly no problem. Xx yeah i know wat u mean. Different talking to someone who gets it hey xx glad yr close to yr sister tho thts lovely. :0). Yea a few more days won't hurt xx
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JX
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Aw u never know! Wouldn't it b fab if it was xx ;0)
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It would be a miracle Amanda and I would sing from the rooftops too !!!
How's your migraine today ??? JX
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Hope you can manage okay with it Amanda...I have found that as the evening approaches around 6/7 I start to feel much better, albeit on Wednesday it was worse for some reason
So as long as i get the evenings rest bite and relief I can keep pushing on...Really in two minds about adding another med before giving the increased Mirtazipine a chance...Just so impatient tho !!!
I have been on the increased dose for 1 week today, so maybe it's to early to bump up with another AD eh ?
Ta JX
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Will do Amanda
The crisis team here in Manchester change everyday...No consistency and have to repeat things over and over each time....Very frustrating.
They keep telling me I will get to see a Pdoc in the next week, but I'm losing hope that that will happen
Ta jx
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That's good to know that the team change from day to day...Just gotta wait for a pdoc appointment
Ta JX
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Yeah it would be nice to see the same person ew h time
But there is a limited number of them to go round
Thank you Amanda it's good to talk with people who ha r been here and recovered
Ta jx
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Got a pdoc appointment on Monday at 11:30, so will not bother with the Sertrraline and leave it up to him
Ta JX
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Hi Amanda
Sorry for the delayed response, family came round last night and had to make an effort...I am in Middleton so come under Middleton & Heyeood JX
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Hi Amanda
Still feeling crappy I'm afraid, but at least got pdoc on Monday morning and the scarey thought of new meds too !!!
To be honest the thought of starting up new meds is very frightening JX
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