Anxiety at an all time worst. I need help.

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Hi, my names Nick, I'm 17. I don't really know where to start with everything. I havnt been diagnosed with anxiety although I do believe I have anxiety or at least anxiety tendencies. I've always been a very worried person and I often have OCD tendencies (I had CBT for OCD a few years ago) but in the past 2 years my anxiety has been unbearable. I've finished school now which was a big relief as I always felt most anxious at school, although I feel anxious all the time. I tend to obsess over people and get extremely attached. During the last year of school, I thought about suicide a lot, and I cut myself on three different occasions. I also started to have either panic or anxiety attacks, I'm not sure what differentiates them but they would always happen when everything got too much. During them I wouldn't be able to control my breathing, I would feel very dizzy and on one instance muscles in my arms contracted and I could not relax them, always being followed by awful headaches. I felt so alone in the world and like I wanted to just disappear and then I met this girl online and we went out a few times and I got extremely attached to her as I do with everyone. My feelings of anxiety didn't go away but they became bearable and a month passes by very quickly. Recently she has barely been talking to me and I understand you can't control people and I would only want her to be with me if she wanted. But in between the times we speak, I feel like I did before I met her, it's unbearable, I feel like I'm breathing but I can't breath and like I'm going to break down crying 24 hours a day. There have been a few girls over the past 2 years which i have felt like this over but I can't seem to get over them and now it's as if I'm going back into this dark hole which I can't get out of and I feel so scared.

I'm not very good at expressing my feelings, and I have said a very brief overview of how I feel, and i know I haven't said anything in the right way but I'm going to post it how it is because I've been thinking of posting for many months now and I don't think I will ever do it if I don't do it now. I wrote this to reach out to someone.

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    hey nick. OCD very commonly overlaps with disorders like depression or anxiety, so it's very likely that you do have it. you very obviously also have depression, so getting your anxiety to a bearable level might take you more effort than you're able to put in right now, but it is very possible. panic attacks can be very disconserting, and the best advice i can think of is too work on deep breathing, which should make it easier for you to breathe during an attack, and should also help with the dizziness. it's important to practice taking even breaths any time when you aren't having an anxiety attack (and when you have the time/feel up to it), so that the breathing becomes second nature during an attack. i'm honestly in about the same place you are right now, and if you aren't already seeing a doctor about your anxiety/depression, then i can assure you that it will help loads. there are plenty of meds that can lessen the anxiety that youre feeling, and getting a break from the depression will be a huge relief. if you don't want to take any medications or talk to anyone right now, writing down things that you're feeling or would like to say can be a good way to put off the anxiety for a while. feel free to pm me if you ever need to talk

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    Oh my good golly. You are a mess. Please tell your mon, dad that you need to go see the family doc immediately, like yesterday. There are amazing meds to make you feel better. You are thinking about suicide because you feel like crap. There is no way for you to have a girlfriend till you get yourself straightened out. The great thing is, that there are medications for all this. Please go, you won't be sorry, and you will get right as rain..xxo

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    Are your parents aware of your struggles? Do you see a therapist? 
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