Anxiety/depression !! Feeling alone and a bit depressed !!

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Before this anxiety I could take a lot !!! I was very strong to , which im sure a lot of us out there were,,, but what happen to me was ,, eventually I got broken down from years (10years) of being strong , holding IN Sadness, pains, heartache among other things,, in a relationship and dealing with a person who mentally, physically, verbally, and emotionally abused me for years , among other things ,,and I really loved this guy , so i never left him no matter what I still stayed and loved him, until one day this anxiety came full force on 11/13/2015 it was a Friday. (Friday the 13th) weird , but anyway , I believe God knew I would never leave this man no matter how much he hurt me , because I loved him , I believe that God gave me anxiety so bad not to hurt me but to wake me up and tell me it's time to go , this relationship is not healthy for you , he does not love you , he's not even there for you in your time of need . and even though you still love him knowing all this , you have to move on because you deserve better . I lost myself in the relationship and I stop loving myself because I allowed this to go on ! And if anxiety never came I would have never left , and its funny everytime he would come around I would feel worse than I did when I wasn't around him , but to be honest even though I left I'm still hurting inside , I feel broken in to pieces and torn apart , I'm so heartbroken .

My point of all of this is , I believe there is a reason for every , and if you are religious or not , things happen in our lives for a reason .

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    Very true and well done you, you are worth a whole lot more than putting up with being anxious, I did nearly the same as you but mine where family members which I no longer have any contact with and feel a whole lot better, each day you will get better and stronger keep going πŸ˜€
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      Thanks Tracy !, its so hard though you know ? I just feel so broken right now , even though all this is for the best . I'm.trying to stay strong , 😒😒😒😒 I cry so much !!!, I mean I'm.always crying . I never dealt with a sociopath before , so.I didn't know what type of guy I was dealing with , its horrible and sad !!,I'm glad its over but I wish things were different ! I'm.so sad , I just want to be over this broken heart !!!,
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    I'm sorry you have has to go through this. You are a strong person for leaving him despite feeling heart broken at the moment . In time this will pass and abuse from someone else is not acceptable.

    I completely understand as I've been through something similar few years ago which started my anxiety and depression . Prior to this I was a happy and confident person who loved life . Now I have low self esteem , hardly have a social life other than working and feel low.

    My life is much better without my ex so please don't go back to him. I'd rather be down but safe knowing I won't be physically or emotionally harmed by someone who is supposed to allegedly love you . Men like this don't deserve relationship without getting the right medical help first.

    I'd like to say the depression will lift but it may taje tine. Like you, i believe that experiences are in your life for a reason and for you to learn from this . So my advice is to never go back into an abusive relationship and focus on building a more positive future with the right support around you xxx

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      Thank u xarjia , I'm definitely not going back , he took.my love for granted for years , and he does not deserve me at all , I would never !! He's a sociopath and doesn't know what real true love is !! I'm just sorry in wasted so much time allowing things to happen to me , when I knew in my heart it wasn't right , but I thank god for taking me out of the relationship when he did , now I have horrible anxiety to deal with also but one day I believe I will be happen again , its just right now I'm so so so heart broken 😒😒😒😒 . I'm learning self love , I just want to be back in live with myself !!
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    You are right the jenni things do happen for a reasonΒ 

    Elizabeth

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