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Hi all, i have suffered from anxiety since i was 14 (GAD) i am 21. I was diagnosed with depression 3 years ago. I was in denial and wouldn't except it after many odd symptoms. But the last couple of months i have to agree there diagnosis was correct. I am in a downward spiral. I see no light. I feel like giving up.
I am going through a divorce from my abusive ex husband. Selling my home. I am lucky enough to have found love again. However, my anxiety stems from my new partner. I cannot accept that he loves me, i wont believe him. I am terrified he will leave me. He tells me over and over that he will never leave , but it wont do. And im ashamed of it. Its a vicious circle. We then argue and then i panic because wev argued and it goes on. I love him so much it hurts.
I cry everyday. Im never happy. I have a constant lump in my throat. Its bringing him down. Which panics me more. I tried to look at it from another point of view and googled ' girlfriend has anxiety' the advice given was to run. Which added fuel to the fire.
I self harm. It makes him mad. But its the only relief. The past week i have been having suicidal thoughts. I serious cant cope anymore.
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