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Hello! I am a 21 year old female from Greece and I would like to share my anxiety disorder experience with you, in the search of, I don't know... Answers maybe... It all started 6 months ago when I woke up a Saturday morning. I had already dropped out of college for over a year because of financial problems, so I already had depression, since I lost my friends and my daily routine after quitting. About an hour after I woke up, I started having migraine with aura ( you get blurry vision and you get kind of blind from one eye, for 10 minutes or so) That happened 3 times in a course of a week. The doctors said it was nothing and it would never happen to me again. About 10 days later, I was watching tv and right there on the spot was the moment where the rest of my life begun. I started feeling light headed and it just wouldn't go away. I stayed up all night panicking, feeling dizzy and the next morning it started getting worse and worse. That was when drowsiness appeared. I felt like my brain was blurry and I couldn't concentrate. My dizziness had started to get unbearable. A few days after that, and after popping some Valerian daily, I got Tinnitus that until today, April the 7th, has not left my ears, for even a second. I got more and more anxious about my condition that I started having panic attacks, accompanied with me wanting to faint. I did many blood tests, but they all came out clean. not even the slightest thing wrong. I decided to go to a neurologist, believing that with my symptoms that started to get worse ( limb numbness, nightmares) were caused my MS, cancer etc. He did some simple tests to me. He gave me Benzodiazepines and I took 15mg a day. I won't lie to you, I felt brand new. But as soon as the box was finished I started feeling like shit again. I went again and he gave me Benzo again plus Fluoxetine. I took roughly 60 mg of those, per day. My life changed ( except from the tinnitus) and I felt really good from day 1. I started therapy as well, but dropped out after 10 sessions, because I hated my therapist :P Three months later, I started having a burning feeling in my throat when I ingested the Fluoxetine. My doctor was not really understanding. I told him that I couldn't bear it but he kept telling me to take it. So I stayed with the Benzo and changed a doctor. Little did I know, Benzodiazepines are very addictive and I had started to feel dependent on them. I went to a neurologist- acupuncturist and she lowered the Benzo to 5mg a day, plus acupuncture . I started having withdrawal symptoms ( 50 days ago) , that were even worse than the ones I had in the first place. I felt like a junkie. I started having flu symptoms, chest pains, my heart skipped beats and even the slightest trigger of anxiety made me crazy. I started having burning feelings in my esophagus when I took the Benzo, so I had to stop it too. Now I'm taking these crap herb pills, that don't really work. Anyway, I feel like no one really understands me. Everyone tells me to calm down, take it easy, but truly, I know that being in this forum and reading this, someone will understand. I feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm having nightmares every night. Any suggestions?
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