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I can really use some encouraging words. Sucess stories, advice, Tips.
Here is my story
I have always been an anxious person. Never seemed to bother me much. This past year has been a whirlwind for me. Filled with great things and lots of stress. I met an AMAZING MAN . After 3 months of of Dating we moved in together to New York City (Stress Capital of the world). It was great. We are like 2 peas in a pod! After 6 months he proposed!! My life couldnt get any better! Than the wedding planning started. We had a small wedding in his parents backyard. My mom is an alcoholic and felt "left out" so tried to sabatoge my wedding. She made big scenes at the wedding- embarassed me than walked out half way through (because she was drunk and mad with one of my cousins)OH and the lady who did my dress alterations ruined my dress the day before so I wore a $20 sundress.... After the wedding we decided to move out of NYC. A month later we found a house. Anything that could go wrong went wrong with buying this house. On top of that my best friend who works at an animal shelter said they were going to "put to sleep" this 6 month old puppy because the shelter had no room...My husband and I agreed to take him.. SO STRESSFUL!! So at this point I was married for a month, in the process of buying a house, got a puppy and had not talked to my parents. There was a huge overlap because our closing date got delayed.. So we were living on friends couches for 2 weeks with our new puppy- and 2 cats. Finally on November 12, 2013 we got to move into our house. My husband drove the truck and I drove our car..... THAN IT HAPPENED.... While driving through NYC over the Whitestone Bridge... A PANIC ATTACK.. I had no idea what it was or what was happening to me. I called my husband and he assured me I was ok. I felt like I was dying. I felt like I wasnt real. I felt crazy. Ever since that day I havent been able to "kick it". Ive been to 5 different therapists, countless doctors and they all say "its anxiety". I know that now but how do I make this living HELL go away? I feel unreal, distant, scared, sad, panicy, tired.....
8 Weeks ago I finally gave in and went on Celexa.... It has gotten rid of some of my physical symptoms- Lump in throat, sinking chest, twitch in eye.. I am still having panic attacks and feel detached from the world in a constant state of fear. I love my husband and my life so much. BUT this is so hard to deal with!! Has anyone else been through stress that leads to anxiety? How did you get through it? I dont want to be like this forever
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