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i am female, 21 and have suffered with anxiety for around five years to some extent. Although recently I have had five really bad panick attacks which knock me for around a week , it makes me have no appetite, I throw up and I shake and feel incredibly nauseous and desperate for help. Since I've been having my attacks, I have developed incredibly low moods which I feel Ill with I feel that low. I constantly feel desperate for help and feel incredibly alone due to how low and alone this feels. Whenever I get back to feeling somewhat normal again I get panicky again for no reason and have to escape from where I am. I have been so tearful lately I can easily cry for hours and any emotive makes me well up such as adverts. I have just finished a degree and believe it may be a response to the stress I went through, i was meant to do a pgce this september but have had to cancel it due to this. My abdomenem sometimes hurts so bad with anxiety that it makes me cry too. I tried going gluten free to see if that worked but it didn't. It may be worth mentioning that I'm dyspraxic so my life hasn't exactly being easy as I don't feel normal I'm also very conscious of my looks and how I come across to others and feel generally crap in comparison especially in regards to brains. I just want to feel normal and be happy like others seem to be I want to be able to deal with life again like I did before march. I'm using beta blockers ATM when I feel panicky or anxious and was given citolpram which i havent taken as im wary of its effects. I have been refered to see a pychologist. This is such a bad time ATM I just want to feel okay again can anybody helps me or at least tell me someone else feels the same way or that they got cured? I hate how reliant this is making me on other people, when i have a panic i have to have someone there 24/7. I have soem really good days where i see a friend and im on a high but then i come crashing down again. I dont harm myself or anything along those lines although I sometimes get the urge to just break my arm or something so that it takes my mind of the emotional pain and gives me pysichal pain instead i also dream of being told i have a illness like tyroid issues or diabetes which is causing this, anyting but anxiety.
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