Anxiety is controlling my life, and I don't know what to do

Posted , 6 users are following.

I've had anxiety my whole life.

Overthinker, overanalyzer, always think the worst is going to happen, jumping to illogical conclusions... About two years ago, I had my first panic attack, and was given clonazepam. I had two panic attacks since then, totalling three; they were easily controlled and the benzo did its job. Though these panics were over nothing.

But it never impacted my life so drastically.

I guess you could say it came to a head this past month. I started drinking a lot for no real reason, other than to quiet my mind. This eventually lead to me getting black out drunk and getting behind the wheel of my car, something I don't even remember doing, and totalling it. No DUI, just a failure to report ticket, and nobody got hurt 'cept my car. This happened very early Saturday morning.

But this event in itself has trigged panic attacks all day, every day, since then. I have a one year old child I am solely responsible for as my husband works down in t

0 likes, 6 replies

Report / Delete

6 Replies

  • Posted

    Ugh sorry my child hit the enter key on me.

    My husband works down in the city during the week, so I'm normally alone. Due to these attacks being all day for two days, I immediately went to my mothers house out of town so I could have some form of solid support around.

    But, the panic attacks haven't stopped. They're every day, all day; if I take a benzo, loranzepam or clonazepam, it only acts as a temporary band-aid. I feel like they're not working anywhere near as well now either; I haven't upped my dosage from 0.5 on both and I'm trying very hard to keep myself from needing them. A walk-in clinic gave me buspolin(sp?), a medication for GAD, but at a very low 10mg a day. I've got Bcomplex and D vitamins that I am taking daily, as well as increased my water intake.

    The anxiety itself is overwhelming me. It's constantly there, taunting me, sitting in my chest, waiting for the chance to break out into a full-blown panic attack. My heart rate has been consistantly above 90 resting, and I feel completely incapable of doing anything. It's difficult to get myself motivated. I don't know what to do anymore, and I can't be like this; my son needs me.

    Any advice would be incredibly appreciated

    Report / Delete Reply
    • Posted

      Hi fellow anxiety sufferer

      I am from the uk so I don't know much about the anxiety meds you talk about but I get the idea. I have had anxiety on and off for 10 years. ( started when my best friend) it went away and came back after the birth of my 3rd child and has now creeped back up AGAIN. I can totally relate to what your saying and it's totally s***.i have high heart rate, skipped beats, dropping sensations in my chest, shortness of breathe (I'm 26 feel like I'm about 70 trying to get upstairs) mine also go into full blown panic attacks where I have to take myself around the block of my house for some relief. I sit and cry because I feel my children will lose their mum and the docs are missing something. I have very irrational fears that I keep trying to convince myself things are ok. Distraction only works for a little bit of time. I'm at my wits end

      Report / Delete Reply
    • Posted

      For the high heart rate speak to your doctor about beta blockers. I'm on them for high heart rate due to anxiety. Propranolol is the most common.

      Unforchantely I cannot offer any other advice as I'm still fighting with anxiety everyday myself.

      I hope things ease up

      Report / Delete Reply
    • Posted

      As you say; the meds are just a band aid, and are a good solution for acute anxiety. A long term and structural solution can be found in therapy. Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) can offer a a way out of the endless cycle of anxiety.

      Make an appointment with your GP ans askf or a referral to a psychologist. It will take some time and work, but in the end you will be able to live a life free of anxiety.

      Report / Delete Reply
  • Posted

    Thank you for the support, guys. It's oddly comforting to know I'm not alone, although I can't reach my GP as she's a 2 hour drive away right now. Going home to be alone with my one-year-old doesn't seem like a good idea for either of us. She was supposed to call me today, but no luck so far, and I got the psychiatrist request going after the first panic attack. They scare the heck out of me.

    And honestly the walk-in doctor didn't tell me how long the GAD meds would take to work lol

    Report / Delete Reply

Join this discussion or start a new one?

New discussion Reply

Report or request deletion

Thanks for your help!

We want the forums to be a useful resource for our users but it is important to remember that the forums are not moderated or reviewed by doctors and so you should not rely on opinions or advice given by other users in respect of any healthcare matters. Always speak to your doctor before acting and in cases of emergency seek appropriate medical assistance immediately. Use of the forums is subject to our Terms of Use and Privacy Policy and steps will be taken to remove posts identified as being in breach of those terms.

newnav-down newnav-up