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So I've been getting very intense anxiety over the past 2 weeks and it's one thing after another.
I had a dream last night that I was a male. And I woke up quite confused with who I am and who I want to be.
Bare in mind I have never ever questioned who I am. I've always been very intune with my thoughts, feelings and identity. I embrace the thought of loving yourself. But recently my anxiety is making me wonder why my mind is fighting against me.
I've never been gender or sexually confused. I'm not sure whether waking up straight after the dream just made me confused the way you would still be angry at someone if they did something to you in a dream and you hold that emotion for awhile.
I woke up questioning myself. Looking at photos of myself. Am I happy being this feminine girl? I suppose that's all I was asking. I didn't have any thoughts about actually changing gender or thoughts about what I would look like as a male. I'm sure that's just anxiety again right? And silly uncontrollable thoughts again?
Not that I'm scared that I maybe gender confused. It was more of a shock of who I am when I woke up.
Has anyone else had a moment like this?
Also I've always been quite intune with my masculine side as well. I grew up quite a tom boy. I never liked the thought of a helpless little pretty female. I wanted to be a strong person.
Maybe because of all this sensitivity, emotions and anxiety it's gotten me away from my masculine side?
My Mother reckons I have been doubting myself a lot recently... Could the dream possibly just have made me more anxious about who I am?
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