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Well, I won't say it's the sole reason for my anxiety, but basically when I was 15 I had a seizure out of the blue, I had a couple more in my teens and then for 6 years they went away. I thought I'd grew out of them and lived life normally. Then all of a sudden last year I had another big seizure and subsequently got diagnosed with epilepsy and since then my life is controlled by anxiety, mainly the big "what if I have a seizure when I'm alone, what if I'm in public etc"
I can't ride a bus to work alone without panicking, and it's only a short journey. I constantly question every feeling for a sign of a seizure, hate going out and leaving the house.
Since the big one last year I've had a small one roughly every two months. I was offered to take medication but I'm too scared of the side effects. I felt like since they weren't that often or severe the side effects of the medication probably outweighs the seizure effects.
I just need to try and accept this is part of my life and move on but I can't! I even cancelled a trip overseas to Florida because I couldn't face the plane journey. I hate to think that I'll never feel comfortable flying again.
I do push myself to go out but every day is a struggle, I have to work so I manage to get here but I'm constantly uncomfortable until I'm home. I feel so useless, I used to be so independent and now I don't want to go out unless it's with my boyfriend.
Anyone else live like this? Anxiety due to an actual condition you have, rather than the usual thinking you have something you don't.
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