Aren't I dead yet
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I'm just venting and this is the first time I've posted anything to a site like this. I can't even deal with FB because of the drama it creates.
I have had chronic pain for over 10 years now. A dozen neck surgeries not to mention the other surgeries. I'm 47, been divorced twice with no kids. I always wanted and had a fabulous career with a great reputation in the field which all went to crap when I became 100% disabled. My mom died last year and my dad, my biggest fan, died in Sept. I am on multiple meds for pain, depression, ocd ptsd, etc. What is it I'm living for? I feel like I'm just done and can't keep living like this. Blah blah blah sorry to be such a downer.
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Adldiane Lynsky
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Lynsky Adldiane
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Thank you Diane.
I'm in pain all the time and have 2 more neck surgeries scheduled in Feb. I've tried counseling and currently see a physchiatrist for what's left of my mental health. Thank you again for your reply.
carmela45627 Lynsky
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Much loved
Lynsky carmela45627
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Thank you Carmela45627.
Life just plain stinks. My car has issues and I just put over $1000 into it and it's still messed up. How much crap can someone take. I was diagnosed as bipolar last year and after horrible results with lithium am now on other meds. Pills drs appts, surgeries, and death have been my life for the past two + years and I'm tired... Tired of all of it. I really appreciate your caring words though, thank you.
carmela45627 Lynsky
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You can find joy in this world. You can be happy. I am bi polar too I know how you feel the lows are horrible. The highs are terrible too. Please get professional help and give the meds time to kick in. Please be patient. Please?
Lynsky carmela45627
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Carmela45627
Thank you for your nice words. There is such a lack of mental health options in my state plus once you pay for your medical insurance, rx coverage, etc... How do you even afford treatment... I feel like I could just lose it. I've always tried to...anyway it's hard to put thoughts into words some times. Thank you again for your kind thoughts. I've lost so many "friends" from having to cancel plans at the last minute or whatever so it's pretty strange to hear such nice words from someone you don't even know.
carmela45627 Lynsky
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Anytime we all have the same thing in common and unless you have you wouldn’t understand. It is so hard to deal with and the last thing that you need is somebody judging you or accusing you. It is a very dangerous disease for the patient. You are very welcome and don’t be afraid to keep coming back even if you repeat yourself this is a safe place for you
borderriever Lynsky
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I am like you I am Chronically disabled and have been on all the courses, also Pain Clinic I have PsA and I am now sixty seven. I have been bad since around 1985 I was retired out in 1988
How can I help
BOB
Lynsky borderriever
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Thanks for the reply BOB. I'm not sure there is anything anyone can do, sorry I'm not more helpful just don't know how to find joy in anything anymore.
Lynsky
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Please know that I appreciate the comments and also want to say I'm sorry for complaining. I know everyone on here has their own stuff going on and maybe one day I can be helpful to you. Unfortunately, I can't even figure out how to get myself together so I don't think I would be of any help to anyone else at this point.
carmela45627 Lynsky
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DarkDancingZoe Lynsky
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Sorry for the typos, speech to text is not being nice.
carmela45627 Lynsky
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We need you! We want you! We care about you!