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I hate to be such a pest on this post I feel like I just can't move from this anxiety. Truly I am just tired of battling at this time. I'm sure many of you read my notes before but I had severe postpartum anxiety and OCD in 2007 after a miscarriage. A couple weeks after the miscarriage I had a seizure on an anabiotic I wasn't supposed to be given. Those two things combined sent me into a severe depression and anxiety where I was anorexic and unable to function and had tremendous intrusive thinking that was Nonstop. I was 30 years old at the time and I was lucky enough to have an 80-year-old Doctor Who called me at home and walked me through my medication. He saved my life along with the fifth med I tried which was Celexa. At that time once I got on the Celexa it was about two weeks and I was at 40 mg and I was feeling really well and never looked back. I never even spoke to my doctor since 2009 and felt fully recovered and stayed on 40 mg for five years till I weaned off during my last pregnancy I stayed off the medication for two years and felt great or so I thought because of slowly came back in here I am again I came back in June 2016 and I remember the day well I tried the Celexa 10 mg and it felt like way too much for me so I stopped after two days .i've been tried Prozac a few months later and it only helps slightly.Then this pat July my doc said to try switching straight to selects again since it help me last time. I did a straight switch from Prozac to Celexa and it went smoothly and for a few weeks I was feeling very hopeful and kind of like my old self again about eight or nine weeks into the 40 I started sliding backwards and felt like I was having all my breakthrough symptoms again. I waited two weeks hoping it was a blip and then gave in and called my doctor she said to up to 60 mg as that can usually be the Dose for OCD. I am two weeks in the 60 mg and fear I will not recover. Some days have been OK but just OK and other days I really struggle. I still haven't felt as good as they did those first few weeks on 40. My doc said I'm only two weeks into this dose give it more time. My kids haven't had their mom back since July 2016 but I really just don't feel like this is going to work at this time and I'm really scared. It works so well the last time. I Disney good but some help because it really just desperate to feel l give it more time. My kids haven't had their mom back since July 2016 but I really just don't feel like this is going to work at this time and I'm really scared. It works so well the last time. I Desperately need some reassurance that this can still work for me I just feel really scared.
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