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I am new to this forum just looking for a place to vent where others might be feeling the same way I am. Honestly, I feel as though I'm going crazy.
A little over two years ago I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. Luckily, I just had to have a hysterectomy with an oopherectomy (1 ovary taken) with no radiation or chemo. Unfortunately, during follow ups, 6 months later the other ovary had to be taken as well. I still felt very lucky because no radiation or chemo was necessary. It was ALL GONE!
After surgery, I felt great...there was so much pain involved with the cancer prior to surgery I thought my life was finally getting back on track! I thought over and over again, Menopause? What do people complain about? This is easy!
Little did I know. Almost exactly one year to the date (which I've learned is normal) of what was called a forced menopause the menopause alien reared it ugly head. Initially, it was just some mild hot flashes and some minor insomnia. Now, the hot flashes have taken over my life and I can't remember the last time I didn't wake up at least 5 times a night. Obviously, the insomnia has had a lot to do with my mood as well. I keep thinking if I could just get a decent sleep then things would be better. My relationship with my husband is suffering and recently we've talked about separating. Sometimes I feel that he would just be better off without having to deal with me and my issues. Sometimes I feel I would be better off alone. He has been very patient but it seems he just expects that one day he will wake up and my menopause symptoms will have vanished over night.
I'm tired constantly, I'm irritable, I'm depressed and I just don't know where to go from here.
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