Bad Day
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Hi Guys,
Not feeling the best today, did not sleep very well at all last night. I have been taking Flu for about 5 weeks now and this is the first time I have really felt down since I started.
I am begining to think that my problem lies with alcohol, I go out for a drink and I don't know when to stop and I end up makin a compleate idiot if myself, upsetting my friends and the worst thing is I cannot remember anything about it.
I am suopposed to have two job interviews today but I cannot even bring myself to leave the house, I'm too scared.
i just wanted to get a few things off my chest as I don't really have anyone who understands. Back to the quacks on Friday so maybe she will have some more help and advice for me.
Dena80
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LellyM
Posted
as I found out, you need to tell your doc everything. She can then determine the correct dosage levels for you.
You are right that alcohol is a problem. There are 2 aspects.
1) Alcohol is a depressant so is fighting against the flu
2) I find I get drunk easier and the morning after effects are worse.
So take a leaf out of my book - get a liking for soda and lime or something equally innocuous.
Also, as others will concur, turning to self medicating with alcohol is a symptom of our illness but it doesn't help. It usually makes you feel worse.
I suggest you get dressed and go outside for some fresh air. Walk in the garden or preferably the countryside and breathe deeply. It will help to calm you.
Good luck with the interviews and keep ya head up!
Lelly xx
LellyM
Posted
I feel like crap, my job hunting is going no where, I feel fat and worthless (even the fat tablets have stopped working). I need a break. When will it be my turn for something good to happen?
At leat the 40mg is stopping me having a melt down!
Guest
Posted
Also having a bad day - first one in a few weeks. It's so easy to forget the good days in between. I agree that Flu and alcohol are not a good idea. I have tried having a few drinks at the weekend but always end up feeling very anxious and unwell. As much as I would love to sit and sip a glass of wine I think the lime and soda sounds the more sensible option. Keep on keeping on. We will get better.
LellyM
Posted
thanks!
We will all get better - it just doesn't feel like it when you are in the middle of an emotional whirlpool and rapidly descending.
I know that it wouldn't take much to put me on an up slope again. Just for something nice to happen (new job, holiday, weight loss). Anything really.
For me the job thing is the real killer:
in April 2008 I was screwed out of a promotion so in May I left to got o a new company.
In june 2008 new company got rid of me for cost reasons.
July 2008 cancelled holiday due to £££££
Sept 2008 got back to work (contracting)
Oct 2008 got permanent job close to home (happy!!!)
Oct 2008 1dt round of redundancies
Dec 2008 cancelled holiday due to ££££
Jan 2009 announced closing factory.
So I am feeling very under appreciated etc etc. The real kicker is I am good at what I do. I just want the chance to do it.
Sorry for whingeing away I just need to talk to to someone.
Lelly xx
LellyM
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psychochief
Posted
oh dear, on a bummer again, i thought it was my turn grrrrrrr, get in the queue behind me !!!! :shock: :wink:
remind youselves of what you can be happy about and how far you have come, be patient (that's rich coming from me lol :roll: ) :huh: :ok:
1)emily and Lelly, the booze is under control, Dena, you have identified/admitted you have a booze problem and need to do something about it.
2) emilyand Dena \"first bad day in weeks\".
3) emily, being positive by reminding youself you WILL get better.
4) Lelly, you have a job, plenty haven't.
5) Lelly, you have identified you \"need a break\", easy peazy, take one and sod work !!!
etc, etc, etc, you get the idea ?? :huh: :ok:
a good cognitive therapy 'trick' is to (if necessary :wink: ) make a list and write down in large capital letters the progress and positive things that have/are happening to you, stick the list where you will see it first thing in the morning, bedside cabinet, bathroom cabinet etc etc, in your case Lelly, the fridge door lol :shock: :wink: :mrgreen: as soon as you wake, read it and digest it, do it enough times and being POSITIVE becomes a 'fixed mindset', trust me it actually works :ok: :rainbow:
anyhoooos given you THINK :huh: you are fat Lelly wouldn't a *cough, 'meltdown' be a good thing lol :wink: :whistle:
cheers folks, go easy on yourselves, there's three prizes, you'll all get there eventually :ok: :diva:
Ken ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :cheers: :rainbow: :rose:
LellyM
Posted
I know I was just wallowing in self pity. Your kick up the derriere has sorted me out.
Got a bit of a break coming in 3 weeks so that will be very welcome.
I know I shouldn't whinge about the job thing but it is like the sword of damoclese - just waiting for the boss to put me on notice.
And trust me, the world isn't ready for that leve of melt down. Mr Stay-Puffed marshmallow man has nothing on me!!
Lelly. xx
LellyM
Posted
Sorry again for getting into such a downer.
Sometimes I just let things get on top of me (and not the right things either!!! LOL!!)
Will try to stop moaning and get on with things. Could be a lot worse.
Lelly xx